me and meself

new beginning

2011-08-07T13:38:00.002+08:00

MOVED. LET'S SEE IF YOU CAN FIND THE NEW LINK.

just a short break from my hiatus from the untouchable world

2011-05-19T14:48:00.002+08:00

hey all!

it has been really stressful and life has been filled with silvers, friends, laughs, frowns and monodeal games..seriously. joven is addicted to them.

anyways...
do keep a look here sometime soon coz my friend and i are going to collaborate to do a vlog/videolog.same thing. plus a few covers of songs that you want us to cover. do tell us what songs you want us to remake so that we can start on it soon. i know that i should be concentrating on my major exams this year but nobody said that i couldnt have fun while concentrating well,right?? EXACTLY.
ok. adios peeps!

Ms A2Z

my resolution?

2011-01-02T15:59:00.002+08:00

hi all!

happy belated new year and happy belated birthday to sungmin whose birthday was on 01012011. it's finally 2011.. after a whole month of anticipating and worrying, it seems like 2011 is settling in nicely. i really hope that the surprises which are in store are pleasant ones.

next year is going to be a hell of a ride and i know it. embrace, enjoy, enlighten.

so what are my new year wishes this year?

well, i wish for everyone's good health. let the viruses and flus be as far away as possible from everybody. i wish that friendships remain strong and that broken bridges are fixed. i wish that 10s74 can be an even more bonded class and that we will have the chance and time to create fun memories that we will carry with us even until we are 30 or 40. i wish that the three musketeers will go out more and continue to stay in touch..yes..i am talking about you guys: NAN and VAN.i wish to have fun-loving juniors who will be able to take the rush of J1 life in their stride well.i wish that i can smile more this year than in any other year. i wish that everyone who is sitting for their A's this year will do exceedingly well. i wish that HC MCS will shoot for the moon and show the judges in april what we have got and bring home our gold with honours. i wish for my parents' happiness. i wish that my dad's business will be smooth-sailing this year. i wish for my granddad's health to be restored. i wish that all those kpop bands remember to rest well and eat well and take care of their health.i wish that we will all be able to leave a legacy this year...

i know that people say that we should say our wishes out loud lest they dont get granted. but i believe that if you say it out loud with all sincerity, god will register it better.^^

wishing you all a great start to 2011! chulkka heh~

miss A2Z

ground close to zero

2010-11-25T14:18:00.002+08:00

after like 11 months in jc, my immune system has really hit rock-bottom. i made up my mind.no injections. it's unpredictable now. i wake up feeling like as though thirty people just stepped all over me and kicked me in the guts. pull myself together.

i havent done any work though. i just spent a hell lot of time worrying.over lots of stuff. dont ask.

this is the first year my mum put aside everything else for family. it really impressed me. and i even saw dad two times in A ROW. wow. new record. i hope it's genuine effort and not just to wrap things up since there's only a year left. let's hope for the best shall we? the future is only bleak if you vision it to be that way~

haircut. +.+

the gift is a beautiful read. pure poetry..

enough time leaves us warm; when our time is gone, it too leaves us cold. time is more precious than any valuable treasure as it has the power to reap the world's most deadly venom- regret. it is time that we do not have enough of it; it is time that causes the war within our hearts and so we must spend it wisely.

time cant be given but it can be shared...and now, it's still ticking away.

language power???

2010-11-19T01:53:00.001+08:00

haha! read this! credited to my ex-lit teacher and musical director! ♥

languige can ern money, meh
engrish can it one, ah
gahmen wan livesigns, leh
dey wan enginear, leh
den go an stardy mats lah!
go an stardy signs lah!
mats can it wan
signs oso can
can poot rice on de tehber
dun pray pray okay!

nex taam mus rite argue compo meh
nex taam mus tok reedem meh
nex taam mus in fur rens meh
but
nex taam can aply lo ga ri dem mah
nex taam can tok ess ess mah
nex taam haf too c contour mah
nex taam mus ji de bio an chem notes mah

ler ning not jus mug meh
ler ning not jus ben midnite oi meh
ler ning not jus ecksam teeps meh
ler ning not jus sp oon fid meh

god notes can aw reddy lah!
god spot can aw reddy lah!
god udder sk ool ecksam paypur can aw reddy lah!
god ten yer see rees can aw reddy lah!

god six poin jiro can lah!
god wan poin jiro can lah!
god top fi can lah!
god for A can lah!
god dee gree can lah!
god musters can lah!
god pee haech dee can lah!
god mahnee den confirmed can lah!

languige ware can ern
dun tok kok!

calling SOS

2010-11-13T21:03:00.002+08:00

yo peeps!

how's life?i know that it's the holidays but how many of you actually feel bored and that there is nothing to do at home. high five man!

i want to watch another thriller movie! i need more life! harry potter is in 5 days. darn those lucky interact people with their free movie tickets.

my mum is thinking of dragging me to wildwildwet and escape theme park. maybe i should let her? and she tells me to invite the person from above if you get what i mean..haiz..how to ask ah>.
by the ways, anyone knows how i can upload voice recordings on the net?? youtube doesnt work.sobs..i recorded a few and now i feel like its a waste of effort. eh..my friend just recommended me a method. i shall go try.

i hope nobody bashes me for accidentally ruining their favourite song whatsoever..

ok! signing off to try that uploading method! if possible, i will make a youtube account.try to google it to see if i have succeeded!

annyeong~miss A2z

it's not goodnight coz it really is goodbye

2010-11-10T02:06:00.002+08:00

to all those people who just refuse to sleep, GOOD MORNING!!!

it's like 2 AM now.. currently at a recording studio chilling with some of my non-school seniors and stealing the internet connection..haha.

i realised how much weight project work puts on my already burdened shoulders coz you can tell how light it is after i have thrown this entire weight to the examiners who are grading me.oh well.. time to face up to the next challenge. SYF GOLD WITH HONOURS.

it's tough. it never was easy but heck. we are only here for two years, right? might as well leave a LEGACY! ^^ i just logged on the emb and saw that we managed to get the SQA award. how is that good news?? i think it just shows our insecurity. that we only feel safe after we have that award to BACK US UP. honestly, if we were really as great as it is said, you dont need someone/ something to point it out to you in your face. it's called mutual acknowledgement. you know a product is good if it has a whole line of customers without a single advertisement in sight. tsk. such a shame~

anyways, we went to cheryl's house today! it's really big. compared to my house... but i'm thankful that my house has one floor only since i am accident prone.. she has so many pets.. including a HUGE fish and a purple pigeon. oh. the bird was cute.coz it did not peck my hand. but i could have sworn that it understood korean..

we went out after that but we spent a lot of time wondering where to go.. we went to long john silvers for lunch and it was so EPIC. dont worry: i will never forget it, JX!

the movie was awesome!!!! and that is already the biggest under-statement of the year. I♥ INCITE!!! it has all the combined actors/actresses from kaiji, liar game, death note..wow! it was a bit gruesome though especially with all those weapons and me and cheryl kept hiding our face to not see it.and ended up curled up like a ball. jiaxin's head totally disappeared under her jacket...LOL! that was the only movie that could make me jump in my seat.just like how jojo jumped when we woke her up suddenly.heehee

i feel pissed now. this people here wont let me watch my liar game season 2..*whines*..it's not working..*shoots daggers*..slightly better. sigh. oh yes. I ♥♥♥♥ akiyama-san too!!!!!
muahahaha..i like the character.darn smart.

okok. they want me to go practise again..sian. 1 and a half more hours to go before i get to sleep and rest well!

ANNYEONG~

hot. HOT. HAWT!!!

2010-11-05T19:19:00.003+08:00

happy deepavali to all those who are celebrating it!!!

i can hear those children playing the fire sparklers that make this high pitch whooshing sound. i feel envious. mainly because i dont dare to play it myself...

when i logged on to my blog, my mood was a bit down mainly coz i am tired..but then the ipod thingy at the mytunes space played 'hello' by shinee and i actually found myself beaming! that tune is seriously a mood lifter..you know..a song that you love so much that you cant help but smile like a fool when you hear it anywhere.

anyways, i also want to wish a BIGBIGBIG happy birthday to my awesome bro! the secondary three one whose height is nearing 1.85metres. dont ask me what he eats coz if i knew, i would have followed his diet a looooong time ago. his birthday is on 6 november. also, another HUGE happy birthday to my other awesome brother! the youngest one with the buddha ears and does household chores really well even though he is only primary three..i love you guys and i hoped that you guys liked my presnts!

what am i doing right now??
i am watching LIAR GAME SEASON ONE! the guy..what's his name? oh yes. mr akiyama is daebak~ after watching a few episodes, 100 million yen sounds like 1 dollar to them as they are able to gamble it away so easily..

happy 5th anniversary super junior! you guys are doing so well! although the journey was rough especially with the rough treatment that you get from your company that resulted in hankyung deciding to leave the group and do solo activities in china.we, fans, still love you!♥ looking forward to seeing you guys next year! AGAIN!

i hope next tuesday is going to be the best day of my life. PW, please reciprocate my love for you. thanks.

Mr A2Z has to stop saying my super junior sucks.ugodbwhbwe8hbiwegi (tsk. thanks ah mr A2Z!) don't mind him.

ok, i shall end here. i need to do bio. i procrastinated for a week alrready.

everybody, annyeong!~♥

big mistake

2010-11-03T11:25:00.002+08:00

hihi! yes, i actually decided to update my blog. right now, i am at B218 and i realise that the computer here are super awesome.they take up very little space coz the monitor is also the cpu. i want one too!!!! but i think my mum will kill me if i tell her so. next to me, jojo and JX are kinda scheming against me. so sorry, mr A2Z. looks like you have to forsake some of your study time to write them letters. plus, i must comment that you are a big meanie for not letting me read. did you say any bad things about me?? it's ok. i should trust you rite? say yes. now, JX is reading jojo's letter to you while i am dying here with anxiety and curiosity. yes. curiousity killed the azilah. anyways, i shall cheer up coz i will be going island creamery.hopefully..yes. jx is laughing. in an EVIL tone. these people are so sadistic. laugh at my misery.. and they are like trying to seal up their letter so that i will have no access to is. i am just amazed that they didn't put it in a safe that is protected by a pin code and will not break open even if i used a bomb on it.jeongmal. i. give. up. good luck, MR A2Z...

the mother of hurricanes :me.

2010-09-24T11:10:00.002+08:00

it's been close to 8 months that i have been in this school but why do i still feel so distant at times. i have made progress though. i have made bonds. but have yet to erase the difference. which is actually kinda sad since that was my aim of coming here. it's a week to promos and i'm kinda crashing on myself. i know i should take care of myslef more but i just don't feel like i deserve to be looked after. maybe i was too ambitious. whatever it is, i ain't backing down even if i fall flat on my face. it's just so different. no matter how hard i try to find similarities. but i cherish what i have now coz nobody else in the world has. i ain't going back even if it kills me.

promises to be kept.

2010-08-21T01:58:00.002+08:00

haha! i know i told some of you that i will update this blog earlier in the week but better late than never, right? quite a bit has gone by these past few days.. the class seems to be getting smaller though...it's pretty sad just like how super junior is also decreasing in size. but i have faith that our ties are stronger than what it seems to be and that everyone will be back.eventually. jojo tomato is coming back to merlion city on sunday!! hah! i bet that she would be mugging econs in the plane..this type of people...tsktsk. i life has been a lot more hectic but i guess i just have to step up my game. nobody has the right to say that i am incapable of doing something, not even myself. aniwaes, i went to watch a movie..LIAR GAME! hehe. mr A2Z complained coz i kinda fell asleep halfway..but what can i say? i was too darn tired lah.. spare me for today,ok?

personally, i think i have to grow stronger. sometimes, i get to weak and i forget to remind myself that if it doesn't kill me, i have no reason to back down. i get so afraid of pain when i know that it's inevitable. i know i ain't a robot but that doesn't mean that i can show my weak side. be strong, zee. this is the time for you to pull through. live each day with a fresh new smile. enjoy each breath, embrace your toughest fight. nobody, not even god, can determine the end to this because i am the only one who can change fate and destiny. pull up your socks a little higher.come on.

i realised that i haven't been taking care of myself my entire life. it's true that i rarely fall sick but when i do fall sick...my goodness..it's beyond BAD. plus, i have hurt myself countless of times. some are minor, others major. i seriously don't know how i can still continue as though nothing happened. i remembered when i was recovering from my back injury.oh.THAT was pretty bad. some HC cut in front of me to get on the bus and just so HAPPENED to hit my bag with in turn hit my back. but i cant blame him lah..he wasnt aware of my situation. hah! that day, i felt like a priest in the bus coz i spent that half hour journey quietly meditating in my seat to make the pain go away. hell.

enough about that..now i feel as though the world is too fast for me to catch anything. it feels as though it's impossible to slow it down. i feel so overwhelmed. my brain feels tired, i dun feel like speaking, smiling takes up a lot of energy and workload pushes my weary shoulders way below ground level. it's a bit exhausting especially since i don't let myself complain about my level of tiredness out loud coz it might in turn affect the energy level of others...haiz..

i'm s sorry that this entry has turned out to be a rant. i had no choice coz i
really had to let it out and the photos that i was supposed to upload here couldn't be uploaded coz system too lag... thanks to all those people who have helped to brighten my days in HC one way or another by making me laugh, making silly jokes, wishing me JIAYOU, talked to me about random stuff,gave me sweets, purposely niao-ed me just to make the mood lighter and so many more. i know i don't have to state all your names here coz you people are really special and you would know it even without having to see you name here.THANKS AND LOVE ALL OF YA!

speechless

2010-07-24T14:34:00.002+08:00

i only have one question to ask here : what the hell happened to spirit?

i felt a bit disappointed..well...that would be the biggest understatement of the year.

ok.moving on.i failed econs but heck. at least now i wont lose sleep over worrying what grade i would get over econs..look on the bright side,right?

i tried. maybe it's coz i didn't try hard enough.

hmm. mldds prac was great.it went smoothly and we had a lot of fun AFTER the practice ended. haha. more embarrasing videos to add on to my list. thanks ah! ><
we are the umbrella serial killers. HAHA!

i feel glad that my friends are back on track. sungmin-gege, it's nice to see you smile again and don't over-exert yourself again,ok? a game is just a game. chill.

happy late birthday CHERYL! i'll be nice and let you play with my hair.lol. glad that you liked our gift..now you will remember EVERYTHING..

hey all, go listen to LUCIFER,ok..the first dance looks kinda nice.but they look darn weird..i feel so disgusted at the fact that taemin's hair is longer than mine!!! wdh -.-
minho looks younger *applause* and onew looks..older. *cries*
key, let me guess..the barber fell asleep while cutting your hair and accidentally shaved your head half bald, right? tsktsk. catastrophic.
jonghyun, i didn't know that you were related to sonic the hedgehog! honestly...-.-!!

i have to go get dressed.s74, have fun during jts!

i cant wait

2010-07-12T20:55:00.001+08:00

yo manz! this week, i am in love with ice cream!!! haha! i went to eat ice cream on our so-called half day at marble slab! there was no one there so we had the whole place to ourselves! haha.it felt as though we booked the entire place.the sweet stuff there was awesome and may i just say that the cheese ice cream was bloody brilliant. we ate a lot! happiness.

then today, i went to island creamery with NAN today! who was supersupersuper nice and treated me! love you man! haha..so poor thing coz the hwa chong people kept staring at the raffles uniform..i seriously dun understand them. honestly, i went there before in MY uniform and no one treated me bad at all! why do you have to behave so digustingly..why so competitive arh? when they dun see us like that? haiz..HC, HC..need to improve ah!

today was a double blow for me. it was a great disappointment i must say but i wont say that i regretted anything coz these grades have helped to find a new reason to buck and work event harder. i felt that a few of my friends really didnt deserve the grades that they got coz they really DID work oh so hard..but its ok. the greatest of people in the world failed umpteen times before they achieved great success. god made things this way for a reason. maybe He knew that if i got great grades now, i would be complacent and become cocky as such he gave me a reality check first. it's true that if you always taste the sweetness of success, you'll get sick of it. you have to experience the bitterness of hardships before you appreciate the sweetness of success.

we have invented a new game but trust me. only people like me would play it! its farnaye though! S is for sleepy student who still has eom to do!

FIGHTING,GANBATEH,JIAYOU EVERYONE!

correction

2010-07-06T18:42:00.000+08:00

how could i be so stupid? it's not MY fight. it's OUR fight.

goddess of war

2010-07-05T10:35:00.002+08:00

right now, i feel like an ass. seriously. i feel like a warrior too. like a warrior, you hurt yourself to protect the ones you love and hold dearest to your heart. but how is it possible that this secret has ruined my entire life. the joy in me, the sincere laughs, my sisters. gone. what can i do now? cry. scold myself. blame on luck. but still i have to follow through. it's the only way, azilah. i'd rather kill myself than hurt others. why can't i stay? why does it hurt so damn much? why do i have to force myself to be happy? why? coz i took everything for granted. i took TIME for granted and now time is no longer on my side. what do i have to do now? stand up, be strong, put that mask on, move forward. my war is still on. when i win, i let the whole world know. one year and a bit. i still have time rite?

sorry chembio.

2010-07-02T12:26:00.002+08:00

im baaaaaaaaack! haha! today, i just feel like laughing my head off coz blocks are over,WOOHOO!!!!

but that didn't mean that they didn't suck.big time!

anyways, i read on sujuism.blogspot that there is going to be an SM Town Live 10 World Tour!! do you know what that means??? any lucky bloke which has the tickets get to see shinee AND super junior! omgomgomgomgomg. i wonder if they have a black market for it. but even if i have a ticket, i have to get ANOTHER TICKET: airplane ticket to shanghai or u.s. honestly, this makes me pissed..why the hell do they not want to come to singapore??? how can you discriminate singaporean fans like this...sobs.

ok, i feel bored now..aha! i shall go and do photo tag on facebook.10s74 photo tag...yay!

before bio

2010-06-17T10:14:00.002+08:00

okok.im back. why? coz my friend said that it was supposed to be 50 unknown facts about me and not 40. hmph..so calculative arh you! fine.here goes!

41. i get a headache whenever i frown.that's why i don't frown.

42.when i was born, i already had a tooth.

43.in primary school, my hair could almost touch the floor.braided.

44.my favourite ice-cream flavour is yam. yumyum!

45.I HATE TOMATOES.

46.i used to be a PSL. and i loved it!

47.i prefer to DO maths than any other subject. not that i LIKE maths.

48.i can't swim, cycle or skate. go ahead,laugh.

49.i love sunflowers and don't really like roses. i can't figure out why girls love roses so much..what's so special?

50.i can bake really well but sadly, to bake, you need time too.which i currently don't have.

yay! the list is done. off to bio! hmm..being the navigationally challenged person that i am, i hope i don't get lost finding E201 coz i kinda forgot where the buildings are after more than two weeks of holidays.heheh.

miss A-Z

keeping promises

2010-06-15T18:25:00.004+08:00

hey all! I KNOW ALL OF YOU ARE BUSY MUGGING RIGHT NOW...
well, so am i! but as you can see, i wanted to take a one hour break to update my blog which seems to be in a deep slumber.

anyways, i was cleaning up the clutter in my room and i found this to pieces of paper which were my drawings for hairdressing..yup..then, i was like super lousy. first time, mah.. if i am not wrong, it was drawn somewhere in 2008.haha!! i wanted to throw it away coz it is of no use now but it feels kinda sad to just do that so i shall post it here and then go and tear it up.

heh..as you can see, i only use to things whenever i draw.a light blue colour pencil and a dark blue colour pencil.hmm.. i see that my scanner isn't very good.nvm.

ok..i promised a friend of mine that i would post up 40 weird things about my self and she would do the same for her blog so since it is long overdue, here it goes!

1.i change my hairstyle every year.

2.i will instantly have a good impression of any guy who looks good in white.(especially white tux or suits..dun ask why.i just realized this myself)

3.i have the tendency to cover my mouth when i laugh.

4.my laugh only has two volumes : really loud or no sound at all. =D

5.i have a sangtae. which means that i will do weird things for no reason at all and only super sharp people like nandhitha will catch me doing it..

6.the bone of both my little fingers are abnormal.

7. i can do the cadbury wave!!

8.i don't eat dinner.

9.i'm scared of ants and lightning.

10. i like the colour black almost as much as i like the colour purple.

11.i'm a devoted...chocoholic.

12.i like to sms without looking at my handphone screen.

13.i carry my haversack on my right side only.

14.i have more than just double eyelids..i think it's 4 or 5.o.O

15.i write my daily to-do list on my mirror using whiteboard marker everyday.

16.i say good morning whenever i step out of my house even if no one is there to listen to it and even if it is no longer in the morning.

17. i only take off my headphones in school after i have nicely placed my bag down on the floor at a safe spot.

18.i have photographic memory when it comes to tables.

19.i hate it when people call me by my full name and i hate it whenever they write the NUR in front of AZILAH.

20.i have a habit of twirling my pen without realising it when i listen to lectures.

21.i cannot sleep with one head pillow. i need two stacked up together.

22.i really want to grow 4 cm taller.

23.i get gastric pains during tutorials a lot but i learnt how to keep a straight face on.

24.i LOVE shiny stuff.even if it is aluminium foil.

25.i keep really, really,really quiet when i am angry.

26.i can carry up to 50 kg of load and fight like a guy if i really have to.

27.i love heights.

28.i have always wanted to appear in the newspaper and wants to be talent-spotted one day.

29.my dream car is a lexus.

30.i hate living in big houses coz i will feel lonely.

31.i still keep my primary school diary.

32.if i wish for something subconsciously,without planning it, it will come true. (proven)

33.i really love my class.

34.i have low glucose levels so whenever i stand up after i sit down or lie down, the whole world turns black for a few seconds.

35.i come up with maths equations spontaneously whenever i see bus numbers.
(eg.67, 6+7 x6 x7 -6+(67)=?)
it's a habit since young.

36.i prefer to sit on the floor than to sit on a chair.

37.i hate the sound of the MSN messenger pop-up.

38.i like oranges a lot.especially if they are cold.

39.i prefer to drink tap water to bottled or boiled water.

40.i cover half my face with my hands when i sneeze.

from the land of chewing gum

2010-06-04T11:06:00.002+08:00

firstly, to all those people who are gong for the 30 hour famine camp,good luck! hope you all have fun and sorry that i can't join coz i'm at somewhere else now..haha..i will be having my own famine camp during the fasting period later this year^^..looking forward to PE then..i hope it's not swimming coz then i won't be able to take part..

anyways, i came across this term on the net : SUJUISM. haha! you know, they have rainism for RAIN when he suddenly shot up to fame and now we have SUJUISM! yay! haha.. i watched dream team the other with dream team up against super junior.hah! super junior should just go and be athletes..i love to watch them sprint and do high jumps.so cool! coz obviously I can't do it.

aniwaes, you know that i am a very habitual kind of person and everything i do in the morning has a sort of a pattern (if you actually observed) and one way or another, what i do every day would be exactly the same if you minus off a few differences. so each morning when i wake up i see this poem that my friend gave to me during my birthday this year. and i really keep it in heart.here's the poem :

i said a prayer for you today and know God must have heard.
i felt the answer in my heart although He spoke no word.
i didn't ask for wealth or fame, i knew you wouldn't mind.
i asked Him to send treasures of a far more lasting kind.
i asked that He'd be near you at the start of each new day.
to grant you health and blessings, and friends to share your way.
i asked for happiness for you in all things great and small.
but it was for His loving care i prayed the most of all.

thanks,Van. coz of this, i have long since changed my routine. each morning we have prayer sessions and now i take an even longer time to pray than before. why? i pray for practically everyone that i know of. my family and extended family members, everyone in hwachong, Cedar and EVPS that i have met at least once, 10S74 , my bestest of friends; NAN and VAN, all my teachers, the people in my neighbourhood, my facebook pals, my MSN overseas pals, my seniors, my basketball gang, all those who have moved on to the other world, and all those who read my blog. i hope it helped in one way or another and i really do it sincerely as my routine is not JUST a routine.

after saying all that, i really miss my awesome TRIO..nan and van,WHERE ARE YOU GUYS? i remember the times in cedar when we used to laugh everyday at nothing at all. haiz..happy times.i shall pull you two back from rjc and mjc once i get back on sunday.. *determined face*

i went for this workshop thing and we had to write our names on this pieces of mhite sticker paper like we did during the oral presentation skills workshop. so i wrote 'Z' on mine. i told the person in charge that it was my short-form name. he was like' ooh.cool!okok.' then we had some discussion thing for 5 mins. then the person in charge stood up and said, 'ok, let's have ZACK to come up and share HER answer with everyone, ok?' ptooi. no.not ok. it's 'ZEE'.ditto 'ZACK'. but i could only correct him later coz i burst out laughing.HAHA!

anyways, i watched shrek with JIAXIN! YAYS! haha! it was AWESOME. but some people said that it wasn't so good.hmm..does that mean that i am easily pleased? heck. have you guys watched it? time to watch karate kid now.=))

miss a-zee

in memory

2010-06-02T11:55:00.002+08:00

as i stand there under the heavy rain
which seemed to pat me,
as though,with pity.
i stared up to the sky,
seeking for God to give me strength.
as my heart seemed to harden
to resist the pain.
i wipe off my tears, hiding the wrench in vain.
with each passing umbrella that plainly goes by,
i kneel down to wish,i prayed and i cried.
as i stared at the ground which covers my beloved,
i stared at this soil,
let this be my last hurdle.
though i never again will see his usual face,
all i will ever see now is this blank,empty space.

-wrote this yesterday in memory of someone.god bless.

a happy me

2010-05-26T23:02:00.002+08:00

hey there! just got back home and i am supposed to do my EOM..i know it's late but i actually took a TAXI home! anyways, i got to keep it short! today was arts fest performance..we weren't actually scared but more to excited. i hope it was a disappointment to all those who cared to stay back..love ya guys! anyways, i felt that we did really well and i was genuinely happy during the dance and not just plastering on a smile.the make up was super thick and i received a million and one comments on how long my eyelashes were..they are REAL,ok?i swear i wasn't wearing fake ones..=D

anyways, tomorrow is the last day of school!!! i am glad and a bit sad at the same time...i guess i won't get to spend my day in school with awesome S74. tsk. i hope p.e. goes well tomorrow!!

haha! i am going to watch shrek too! to all those who want to come, you better tell me fast tomorrow. i ask so many times already..=(

maybe i was naive, got lost in your eyes and never really had a chance...

thinking deep

2010-05-23T21:48:00.002+08:00

By religion, we whole-heartedly believe that God is almighty and great. God will show us the way and give us solutions. God will only give us obstacles that we can overcome. However, it didn’t specify how long it would take for us to overcome our obstacles- a day, a week, a few years, or a lifetime. People frequently say that whatever does not kill us only makes us stronger but they fail to recognize also that whatever that is too strong for us to take or handle will only kill us. Does this make any sense? In life, it’s no use being happy when a problem or obstacle has been overcome because a new one is just waiting round the corner to rear its ugly head. Basically, as a human, our life consists of us solving riddles and problems that the Gods throw at us. Yet, we pray for mercy- asking for help from them to lighten our loads and daily burdens. Good deeds that are carried out by us are seen as some form of credit which can be used to get a favour from them whilst sins that are accumulated would only result in even more obstacles to come. It’s as though when others are running a 4oo-metre race with 3 hurdles, yours have 50 hurdles. Most of us leave the Earth with the belief and faith in heaven and hell. So, we often do good deeds and pray hard that God will spare us our last obstacle before we are granted entry to heaven. At my present age, God has been kind to me and I hope that God will forever be kind to me. I may be young and y mind may be twisted but sometimes I feel as though God needs a list of the good and naughty just like Santa Claus. I’m sorry God and pardon my indifference as I kindly point out that sometimes you do punish the wrong people.

miss A-Z

tell me a fairy tale..

2010-05-22T18:28:00.002+08:00

hey guys! long time no blog! just warn you guys, this is going to be a loooong post so be prepared to spend quite a bit of time on this site,ok?

haha! now,where should i start? let's begin with econs tutorial on last wednesday, shall we? haha! we were supposed to be paying attention in class but then we decided to play a game..you know..the one where you keep on adding a sentence until it becomes a story..ok.i shall type out the story for you to read ok? a new line means that a new person wrote,ok? and the brackets are my random comments.heheh.

there was once an old frog with a beard. (dun ask me about the beard.ask cheryl..)

its name was JoRylAz. (joven+cheryl+azilah)

one day, it choked on a dragonfly while trying to eat it.(loser frog..)

the frog suddenly remembered that it was allergic to dragonflies.(??)

so, it spat it out and ate a mayfly.(again,ask cheryl.)

the mayfly got stuck in the frog's throat too.(double loser frog.)

hence,it went to the doctor rabbit to get the fly out..

the doctor rabbit was busy trying to make Alice grow bigger.(rabbit in alice in wonderland)

the poor frog decided to visit doctor quack duck instead.

but doctor quack duck was too busy undergoing plastic surgery to become a beautiful swan.(ugly duckilng)

left with no choice, the frog decided to swallow some pond water to try and gulp the fly down.(now, why didn't it think of this the first time??)

however. the pond water was polluted with chemical as a negative externality of industrialization.(yeah, econs)

national geographic filmed this and sent it to miss lu for econs ilp. =)

by then, the frog had swelled up like a balloon and exploded.( ouch)
the end!

moral of the story : pay attention during econs tutorial. HAHA!

moving on, we went to support the softball team on wednesday..quite a few girls and a VERY reluctant mun yong liang. i played a lot on that day..thanks to all those people who helped me to cheer up!! aniwaes, we so OWNED the game..hah!i don't mean to be mean but i didn't know the team was that good! haha! me and yong liang can totally star in the next star wars series..aniwaes, this boy decided to be supper mugger and do chem tutorial..so we decided to play THE GAME again!! here it goes!

once upon a time, there was a piece of tissue paper called **********. (ehem!)
he stayed in the tissue packet happily until one day when someone took him out.
he was thrown into a bucket of water which came from the longkang.(this was NOT written by me!)
being a quality tissue paper,he absorbed all the water and icky stuff. (yikes)
he ate a jellybean.(HUH?)
the jellybean was purple in colour and as it was magical, ********* turned into a pink and purple polka-dotted frog. (i just like frogs,okay?)
because he was such a cool frog, people caught him and sold him at a shop.
someone bought him but thought that he was a fish.( a FISH??)
the person called him pinkiepurplenemo.(yup, i have GREAT naming skill)
she put him in a fish tank and fed him earthworms.(eww...)
now he has many friends to play with..
one day,they decided to play frisbee..
and they used him as the frisbee.( i am innocent,i swear.)
but it was quite ineffective as he kept hopping around.plus he is not circular and flat.
in the end, they gave up playing and decided to eat.
they boiled some water and added salt and pepper. (o.O)
but they decided that eating salt and pepper without water was nicer, thus they fainted due to over-activation of tastebuds.(err...ask clara.)
they all just lay still..
and the ceiling fell on them..(omg,cheryl!)
tehy died. =(

comments from our frog :wtshit..

see, totally bored.

moving on..jiaxin bought me cadbury chocs!! haha! yay! she said that she gave it to me coz its chocs and i LOVE purple. hmm..to all those people out there, please also know that i love purple and chocs..hinthint. haha! then, we came up with thios mugger club..not entirely my idea!
joven and MYL are president. i am the sec-treas.LOL. and WC is pub i/c.haha! eh, dun believe that this is true, ok? only playing lah..^^

yesterday, our class chef brought us LIEBNIZ BISCUITS! yumyum..but i'm telling you guys.it SO doesn't work..i was still clueless during maths lecture after that. i shall go and hunt for NEWTON BISCUITS next time.

anyways, i hurt myself during malay dance too..shucks lah. cant walk properly..but it should heal soon lah. it happened coz of the rough stone floor at tian tang.(is that how it's spelled?) but it's ok, coz i LOVE mldds!!!yay! ^^v.

i watched mulan 2 today. then i heard one of the songs in the movie and thought that the lyrics were very applicable to myself. GO WATCH IT UNDER MYTUNES! it's very sweet.
maybe i should listen to the song's lyrics..

'it's ok to be afraid.'
i guess i have to face up to my fears.my greatest fear? REGRET. i don't fear failure. it's good to fail once in a while. i just don't want to regret anything. i want to fail with acceptance. with zero thoughts of 'darn.i should have done blahblahblah.'

perfectionists have the toughest lives coz they spend their time correcting themselves when mistakes are inevitable in life.

one more thing. who wants to watch shrek?

upset.

2010-05-18T17:45:00.002+08:00

i wanted to post something funny today.but then i got a call from charis. she asked me where i was and i said that i was at home.then i found out that there was cca today but i wasnt INFORMED! now i am very sad.no dance. no culture, no life.sobs.i feel upset.im so sorry seniors that i didn't turn up today, i really didn't know. and i was really looking forward to tomorrow coz i thought that dance practice was tomorrow..why do i have to stay so far away from school?i hate this.

gaga over telephones

2010-05-16T11:31:00.002+08:00

so sorry that i have been neglecting my blog for close to a week for those who complained and said that it was still the same post after checking for several days. and thanks for following my blog!

recently, i had my econs test. well that sucked. simple as that. but keep the faith doods..it ain't end of the world.

then we had CSM on friday. it. was HOT!!! maybe it was just because ARES was there so we added to the heat..=D anyways, we were playing and fooling around and we were laughing hard when shyam ran coz it was so unbelievable! you should have seen the speed difference.HAHA! but i honestly felt that he should have been the last runner..that would have spelled DOOM for the rest of the participants..then we went to eat at golden chicken..and i was crapping with abi by saying that sooner or later, we will have a platinum chicken soon.LOL.see how the sun can fry our brains??(or maybe it could be the upcoming maths lecture test that's frying my brain..) at first, it was a bit sad that not all of 10S74 was there..then voon came and ZX came and joven came and YL and WC and WQ came and yay! almost the whole class was there!

my new song is actually telephone by lady gaga..but i cant put up the video.coz it's a bit...erm...you know. you can go watch at you own discretion.o.O
so i put up SHINee's KEY's sm audition! haha..i didn't know the dude can move like dat..but i know that his memory towards dance is extremely good! you do it once and he can copy the entire thing without a sweat.awesome man! and i put up nick's and trent's dance prac for sorry sorry. but got too much laughing..tsktsk..hope you guys like it! ^^

off to at pancakes for brekkie now! i shall start to eat regular meals from now.no..that's not right.i shall TRY to start eating regular meals now..yup! much more correct.

miss A-Z

BONAMANA

2010-05-10T17:49:00.000+08:00

monday blues is here to bug me again..aahh! i seriously HAVE to cheer up.

anyways,chem test was pffft.you could have been nicer and given us all at least five more measly minutes.i doesn't pay to be kind you know?

tomorrow is going to be a demoralising day for me coz we are getting back our bio test.i don't want to see the paper if i didn't do well.the teachers can keep the paper as a souvenir or something.it's just too sad.

plus there is an integration pretest and differentiation post-test coming up AND an econs essay test.sian. the only thing cheering me up right now is my new 2PM file staring right at me with their undivided attention.^^ how nice...another good-looking file to accompany my equally good-looking SHINee file.=) thanks JP! you rawk!

oh! i got hold of super junior's new single from their upcoming album..it's not supposed to be released yet but heck.when you are a fan, you get impatient,rite?BONAMANA! it's darndarndarn COOL! it's like fusion and stuff and it has indian beat elements.i just love how they are so culturally sound even though they make up a big part of popular culture...

we need to buck up for pw. *biggest sigh in the world*

remain optimistic,Z. believe in newton's law of attraction.

ok..sorry but no new song today..next time i put up two new songs,k?
right.off to do maths and GP corrections.adios amigos!

miss A-Z

stay as ONE!

2010-05-07T21:46:00.006+08:00

TGIF!! haha.it's finally friday but i bet no one is looking forward to monday...

aniwaes, we had basketball for PE today. hmm..i now know that my skills in basketball is close to zilch. anyone who wants a moral boost in basketball should play with me. you would feel much better about yourself then.LOL!

today was a happy with lotsa laughter , dance and singing.yay! me likey. i felt paiseh when i had to demo the walking part during malay dance prac. but i'm very happy that now everyone can perfect their moves and we are going to be soooo awesome on dance nite! gosh.i can't WAIT for dance nite.buy tickets you all and i will promise to not screw anything up.i love my cca...

btw, congrats to all those people who got into our fac comm! though i don't know the whole list of people who got in yet.i only know that JP did.yay again!!^^

okkkkkk.i have something REALLY important to say.i want to go watch shrek 3D.i want to go watch shrek 3D.i want to go watch shrek 3D.wait..where was i? oh ya! i want to go watch shrek 3D!!! anybody wanna go with me? it screens on 20th may. tell me if you want to go with me, ok? i feel sad going alone.=(

super junior is going to release their fourth album soon!!!! *SQUEALS* since singapore is always so slow in releasing albums, i already placed an order for a copy of the cd straight from korea. i love kiasu-ism.tsk.who ever said that we were losing singapore's identity?ok. but here's the SAD news...only 10 suju members are taking part in this album.sobsobs..WHYYYY??
what is happening to everyone?DBSK IS close to gone.not that i like them.. 2pm lost a member.who is also the LEADER. super junior is falling apart. sigh.i have to smack some sense into them.seriously. if SHINee dares to disband or anything (touch wood.no.touch all the wood in the world), i might seriously consider flying to korea and finding them.

hmm..i smell chicken.alrites,i shall go steal some from the kitchen.in the mean time, the new song of the day is 'i did wrong' by 2AM! i listen to this song every morning now!!

miss A-Z

mix podded.

2010-05-06T17:27:00.002+08:00

oh man..

today i got back my chem test, but i'm trying really hard not to be demoralized.azilah, you honestly need to be happier.smile!

okok..today, i have to rush econs ilp. anyways, during econs lecture, we got a message from our teacher. but it was sooo sarcastic it almost hurt.seriously.ouch,man. it wasn't even like funny sarcastic like our used-to-be bio teacher.hmm..i didn't know we were THAT bad. sometimes, i do feel sorry for her.sorry if we kinda ruined your life by making your life difficult.wait.that didn't sound nice.let me re-phrase that.sorry if we made your life more challenging and lively and unique each lesson.there you go...much better.

ok.i was making a spaceship during break.haix..its been a loooong time since i last touched lego bricks.it was so cool though. my ship could fit all the lego people that ZX brought. my spaceship ROCKS.

my trip home was darn funny coz i was watching to guys trying to compete with each other who can stand the longest without holding on to any pole for support. and 67's route turns around a lot of corners...which equates to them falling down a lot. super funnaye coz i wasn't the one doing it..=D

aniwaes, tomorrow's PE lesson is basketball. hmph. i wish i was slightly stronger. or at least can dribble properly..it would be fun if we were just shooting hoops.oh man. i just hope i don't embarrass myself.azilah, fighting!!!

heheh! i'm staring at the ceiling now!! no. i am not nuts.at least not for now. the ceiling seems much more appealing now.wow. look at how much difference five new faces on the ceiling make. it gives me so much motivation to stare at the ceiling now.teehee.^^

there's dance tomorrow!yay! dance= love.

JOY: i'm super nice and decided to grant you your bdae request!though it was last minute..but since you rock, i'll do it! haha! this is going to be your best bdae EVA!

=0 shucks.must go print those lyrics and study and practice and do ILP!!!!!

run devil run!

2010-05-05T16:45:00.002+08:00

sorry about this, but let me RANT for today,ok?

sometimes, i really feel as though i am working hard for nothing.what's my motivation now? NOTHING. exactly my point. my grandparents came over today. i was super happy coz it's only once in a blue or purple moon that they do drop by for a visit coz they live in tanglin halt and i am in tampines. my grandad had a talk to me about what i want to be when i finish jc. typical,i know..but this is different.he told me that he was ready to put aside money for my studies.that meant that he spent a whole lot of TIME thinking about my studies.i.am.touched.not that my parents don't think about my future too...but they aren't really a supportive bunch.here's an example:

me: mummy, i scored full marks for chem test today!
mum: huh?what did you say?
me:chem test..i scored full marks.
mum:oh.ok.
me:i got 16 for econs too..
mum: out of? *questioning look*
me: 20
mum: what happened to the other four marks?
me: top in class scored 17..
mum: wad happened to the other FOUR MARKS?
me: it's ok..just continue watching tv.i'm going in to study.

sigh. it's rather sad really. wish my dad was here but he would kinda act the same way too. what's wrong with them honestly.give me a break. what's wrong with a simple 'good job'?
i guess it just doesn't exist in their dictionaries.

okok.i shall stop now. i need to go mug bio.btw..the video for MyTunes is run devil run by SNSD. haha..me and my friends are learning that song for fun now.to all those people involved,please meet at at our usual place, usual time!^^

PS- i know you all trying to sabo me with all the high parts! haha! but i will try hard to sound good coz i don't want to ruin a good song.=)

HAPPY ONE DAY AFTER LABOUR DAY!

2010-05-02T17:35:00.004+08:00

yups! hey all of you!

okok.let me give you guys an update of wad i have done today and yesterday...
well, yesterday,i wasn't feeling so ok. so i want to the park near my house to chill and let of some steam. i met VB too! it's feels great to have someone who you can just share everything with. sadly though, we could only talk for a while. sorry again if i have been too cut off from the world. NAN, if you are reading this, call me soon, k? i think we need to talk. we have been trying to meet each other on the trains to school but it never seems to work out. i know you have problems. maybe, i can help. or you can just vent and scream and let out all your steam and i promise to listen.

then, it got me thinking. what if i didn't choose to go to HCI? would i still get to meet all the awesome people that i know now? would the teachers treat me the same way? would i ever get the chance to join another cca other than choir? would i dare to push myself as hard? probably not. so for this, i should start counting my blessings now. mainly, because there are others out there who aren't as fortunate as me, who has to go through more struggles, who has to live with problems up to their necks. i should be thankful that at least my problems are only up to my shoulders. easy to carry and i still have space to breathe..

ok.for those who actually realised that i have updated my MyTunes, it's actually a video of lee hyukjae ( or better known as eunhyuk) who is one of the top five dancers. i was preeeeetty impressed by this short clip coz it was totally an adlib. 100% unplanned. quite good,right?

oh yes, just in case you were wondering who the other good dancers were, they are donghae (born Bboy), shindong( amazing!~considering his size..^^), sungmin(i still adore that cap dance he choreographed) and hankyung/hangeng (i love his powerful moves.full of energy and punch. PS.he is a ballerino who is pretty renowned in martial arts..)

this a video of super junior's dance battle.must watch! plus, shindong looks funny with the mushroom hair.=)

ok, this was another dance battle for super junior but it was their private rehearsal.eunhyuk in brown, lee teuk was sick-in white, shindong in purple and sungmin with coconut hair!! watch EUNHYUK.smooth criminal!

new moves, new GROOVES!

2010-04-30T20:06:00.002+08:00

hey all of you who read my blog!

currently, i'm trying my very super duper best to keep this new blog alive. i seriously have no idea how you people do it. anyways, just to clarify some stuff, the URL is still the same and the MyTunes at the side indicates the current dance that i am learning or the current funny video that i watch..so keep a look out for it yah! coz i change it with every new post..

okok. today was like 2oom hurdles to me. one obstacle after another until i now have the luxury to relax (a little). i went to post on my class blog and tried to make as long as possible. cheryl said my post should be 1000 words long coz i procrastinated since last week o.O.ZOMG. i don't think it's THAT long though..

NAPFA is finally over!! now we can play games! but i shall still go cheer on those people who have yet to take 2.4 km run since they were sick the last time! JIAYOU! 10S74 will OWN! heheh.i was secretly laughing at all those whose PE module was swimming. to all those with swimming modules for PE, i am so sorry.i know that i was mean. don't take revenge by pushing me into the pool coz i ALSO can't swim..^^

heheh..as you can see, the video for today is SHOCK by BEAST! yayness. they can't really match up to my SHINee and suju13 and 2pm but they are somewhere there. i listen to it on the morning to school now so if any of you say hi to me and i don't reply, i'm really sorry coz i 'm most probably listening to the pretty cool beats..till next time!

MISS A-Z

the day of resurrection

2010-04-29T19:18:00.002+08:00

HEY PEEPS!

it has been eons since i last posted anything on this blog. and there has been so many changes!
firstly, i'm in a new school..yeah HWA CHONG!!
secondly, o levels has left me behind and A levels is now running after my life.
thirdly, i changed my blogskin!! i was so reluctant to change it.sobs. my beloved super junior. but i have to move on right?so, moving on, i have changed it to 2pm.equally awesome man.

hmm...tomorrow seems to be a busybusy day.there's NAPFA 5 items-let's get it over and done with, compre test=screwed. plus school ends at FOUR.sianzers.

hmm.i shall blog on the class blog tomorrow since i have promised this person who keeps on playing with my sad-excuse-for-hair.hint: her name starts with C and ends with L.obvious lah! i promise to keep my promise...to blog.

oh man.i still have to go search for EOM. who is the dude who came up with PW? honestly, how does it feel to be the most hated guy in Singapore every year? why did you put yourself in this kind of situation? thanks to you, i am currently stressed over current stress issues.oh the irony.

anyways, today was an OK (minus the chem test and maths test and ANOTHER maths test) day.Bio was fun. we had to come up with answers to enzyme qns and ours was super excessive. but should go memorise for full mark answer^^. oh.we got back our bio food test prac too. i had a stupid mistake..LOL.my heading for my graph is: TABLE showing the relationship between blah and blah.and ms choong wrote "sigh :( ". hmm. funnaye that i sighed too.

shucks..i think i shall stop here and continue tomorrow.i seriously have to stop ignoring my angel and mortal..shall go write stuff to them. guess that's it for now...

MISS A-Z

the shell has broken

2008-07-08T17:01:00.002+08:00

hey!people who still go to my blog! yup! it has been so super long since i last posted anything.i cant seem to remember when exactly but i know that i dont suffer from senile dementia or anything like that in nature.

first things first, those who want me to link them,tag on the board ya? i know that i sometimes..ok..ALWAYS..dont tag on others but dont follow.bad example.heeheeh.and i know that there will be those who will ask me why the hell i chose a banana of a blogskin out of all the skins thatyou can find on the internet..but i ask you.you go and stare at all the guys that can be seen on the screen? you must have been blind not to go soft-hearted.. but i did try to avoid this skin though.tried so duper hard.i tell you what i did.i was looking for the perfect skin when i came across this cool brown one and this yellow current one.i looked at this yellow one and the pictures of hankyung, kibum and heechul totally melted my heart! so i gave in.the end.haiz...so much for trying hard..

today was damn funny ah.topic of the day: moving houses. no. i am not moving to some condo or dont know wad..me, vrinda and nandhitha are planning to move house together.where? the place is so well-known! WOODBRIDGE HOSPITAL.. the whole day, we were like planning on when we will go,( this friday) and what to bring. hmm.. what should i bring? i shall bring my teddy bear,favourite pillow...i dont need to bring any food becoz vrinda has got it covered...oh! jelly! i dont think they have it there. aniways, my head hurts from thinking and wondering how people like GILLIAN can raise their values in facebook until so high.i.am.jealous,man.i am telling you all,if her friends continue to goreng her, she is going to turn into a crisp BURNT goreng pisang before the end of this term..oh ya.poemss.

success
tests and exams,we have seen them all
sometimes we cheer,but usually we brawl.
a fail means three steps down
and a pass mean just one step up.
success is hard for all
but i rather go mental hospital..

it's just another retreat

2008-03-14T14:23:00.003+08:00

here it goes again.everything i hoped to not happen,it happens.i hate it.despise it.i have grown quieter.dont mind me.it is just my retreat to heal.just talk to me.i am fine.really.

anywaes,today is friday.the saddest friday that i have.2 more days of freedom.and then...that's it.time to put up my armour so that i can withstand everything for just a little longer.to hold in all the broken pieces.to hold in every single speck of dust.

ok.subject change.now i am officially thinking choir all the time.and making myself laugh.last tuesday,my friend was talking to me and she is the type of person that ussually speaks super softly.of course,i wanted to ask her to talk a bit louder so that i can hear.but i accidentally asked her to crescendo.gosh..and she does not think music so she was all 'huh??'.

goodness.anybody wants to buy choir tickets??

random,my bad.

actually,come to think of it,this year is goin to be super hectic.and erm..musical.coz there is the choir performance at the esplanade in may,then a few other small performances..speech day item..and the cedar musical.yup.its going to be a unique year.and i really hope that i wont trip or do anything embarrassing when i get my prize on speech day.oh god.i pray hard..

and one last thing.natasha,m&m rocks!

depression sinks in to reality..

2008-01-28T20:23:00.000+08:00

i feel so shocked.reallyreally shocked.my mind was blank during choir and school.no choice.my granduncle died in front of me.how is that possible?how could it dare to happen?he looked so peaceful though.but he didn't even get to say a last word to me.my mum said that it would help if i talked to him in his comatose state.he didn't answer me at all.he didn't open his eyes.but he lost his heartbeat.and i didn't even got the chance to tell him that i finally got the hang of linear inequalities.and i just stood there.while the doctors were covering his face.i just.stood there.like an idiot.first time i saw death in my eyes..and i was more depressed to hear that people can't seem to carry a lighter burden.complaining without knowing or realising that the person next to you is of a worse state than you.i would have shot off my words.but i chose not to.she was too much.i couldn't read the words anymore.can't stand to continue.almost cried in school.but luckily i stopped myself in time.only a few tears escaped.but luckily no one saw.it was better off that way..

hi

2008-01-07T10:33:00.000+08:00

yo.long time no types.i am typing from school coz my com is still dead. dun know wen i will get it fixed though.wowzers.in 3A this year.and a psl.more stressssssss.just a short one.i hope you ppl still visit my blog.give me till february,kaes????i will get my com fixed by then...

.........................................................................

2007-11-12T06:57:00.000+08:00

leaves.
roots.
trunk.
bark.
branches.
it grows,
though they don't speak.
they get abused,
cut and balding.
but they recover
they grow.
unlike us,
they let it go
while we hold grudges.
they withstand the pain for us..
but we are selfish..
so..
wad do you think of inanimate objects and ourselves now?

not everyone can be great,but a great person can come from anywhere

2007-11-12T06:42:00.000+08:00

here i am in the morning listening to the campfire song song by spongebob and patrick.i feel like a loser.hahaha.watched MTV the other day and watched this click 5 special.i hate them.coz they went to zhenghua and did not go to cedar.they are SO cute,can?when they arrived on the stage,the curtains were closed.there was this long table you know,like the ones you see during press conferences??yup.when the curtain wanted to open,they hid behind the table.because the table was covered by this cloth thingy,of course they could not be seen...then the students were like so confused.,coz the curtains were opened but there was no one on stage.you should have seen their sad faces.like so disappointed.hahaha..then the click 5 jumped up and the students started screaming again..comical...

Ellyn came yesterday to give me the bracelet i ordered from her..its damn nice OK.red and black.quite emo but still beautiful..and i could not stop admiring my hand.but i had to coz my mum told me to go to sleep.but i wore it to sleep.hhaha... i am telling you ok..visit her shop..it sells so much stuff at unbelievably cheap prices!!!!! i am serious..and the jewellery are very creative..not those types you see in every shop or stall you walk by..go visit!!!!! i should know coz i am a happy customer myself...hahaha..

wow..ellyn should be happy.i some sort of advertised for her but not on purpose.i just felt that it should get some recognition.. :)))))))

cycle of life

2007-11-05T20:44:00.000+08:00

a leaf drops,
another one grows.
the clouds cry,
and the storm just goes
- away.
good things after bad.
keep that in mind.
someone dies,
another is born.
and when you cry,
the pain is gone
- out of your heart.
and the cycle just goes back to the start...

i'm getting richer by the day; with smiles...

2007-11-05T20:27:00.000+08:00

we are known to love the four-letter word.no.not that one.it's ''free''.yup. that four-letter word. i was at the bus interchange in tampines.you know,queue for the bus.then comes along this auntie.it comes to me naturally to smile at anybody i see...so i smiled at her.better than ignoring her presence,rite??? then she stared at me. really STARE at me.with that look in her eyes saying, ''why are you smiling at me for?''. so in the bus i started to think.hey.dotn blame me kaes?? it was a half hour ride home.plenty of time to waste.i mean,wad is wrong with people these days?? are we that stingy? until we dont even have the heart to give away our smiles?? we have to know that smiles happen to be countless as long as they are from the heart and they are free. you dont lose 5 cents from smiling at anyone.and the same with others; you have to pay to receive or appreciate the smile.i am not trying to mock others or anything.don't get me wrong. but i just dont understand.free samples.we want.free food.we want.free newspaper.we are willing to queue for it for hours,yes HOURS, just so that we don't have to spend 60 cents to buy the newspaper ourselves.but a smile, which happens to be priceless,we don't want.a bit the wrong,right?see how economy changes?i still dun get that lady's reaction.guess..she has too many zeros in her bank account balance that she could afford such a priceless thing anytime that she didn't treasure it as much.

touched by a kind soul....

2007-10-31T07:55:00.000+08:00

i am so touched.i am crying.but it is okay.there is nobody at home to see except for my computer screen.thanks natasha.really.from deep down my heart.you are so sweet.i didnt realise that i had done so many valuable things for a friend until i read your blog post.nobody had done anything like that for me.dang. now i am going to be really sad if we are no longer in the same class next year.

and who is this unknown person on my tagboard?so annoying.nevermind.why are you so erm...against me?i am not angry..but just curious...you sound so weird.or maybe it is just because you have nothing else better to do???

hahahahahahaha....

great day! woohoo!!!!

2007-10-30T21:17:00.000+08:00

i went jalan raya with my pri 6 friends todae!!hahaha. but syahirah deserted me.coz she had cca.so i was stuck for guys.damn crap lah. still playing pokemon at their age.so funnaye...ziyad and me were like staring at each other and telling each other that we dont know them.hahaha.pokemon...telekinetic.wwwooww....i felt so inferior to them.coz of my lousy grades.but dun care lah.i am still taller than them.except one one.ahmad was waaaay taller than me.dang.but.heehee.i wore 3 inch heels.so i was as tall as him.yay for me!beat that tall beanpole!oh ya.then half way it started raining.the boys wanted to play soccer at the void deck but they change their minds coz i would be left out.sweet but still so insulting,can? i cn so play soccer in skirt lah...hmph!it was raining yup.and i ran in heels.really RUN.in the rain.wow.PRO...haahaahaahaahaa... then they came to my house.they are weird.they like,enjoy watching idiots on motorcycles crash into each other. so erm...interesting.ohohoh.that wasnt the best part.i watched this soccer game.one guy accidentally kicked the ball into the face of a player from the opposite team.the guy got pissed,took out his shoe and hit the guy who kicked the ball.then the teammates of both teams came together and bashed each other up.then both the team coaches tried to separate the players.but they got fed up and went to get plastic chairs from the stands and fought each other....AXN IS SO ENTERTAINING....

a year ago
we didnt know
or was not to sure
who are you and
who am i.
but the year has passed
and a new one will come
yet,it is still not time
to say goodbye..

this goes to hasia...

2007-10-30T20:48:00.000+08:00

waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh...so many people leaving school next year.so sad you know? i will miss hasia the most.i mean,next year,i won't have anybody to give me free chocs anymore...byebye chocolate.i can just imagine my chocs flying away with wings.that is weird but i can still imagine.hmph?haha..k.then,i have one less person to talk crap with.sadsadsadsadsad.but then...no one to poke me in the ribs anymore.and nobody to MESS UP MY HAIR.humph.hasia.you better come back to cedar.or erm..the old victoria school.
haix................................
byebye chocolates..........................

oh and if you still dun know.this is hasia ask me to typr one....^^

yaaaaaaaaawwwnnnn..excuse me?

2007-10-21T09:22:00.000+08:00

in the morning i blog already.wow.something new to me.and what am i doing while blogging? eating macs.in the morning.omigosh.just remembered that cannot eat too much or else later stand a higher chance of getting breast cancer.haha.i sound like eunice.wdh..aniwaes,i feel so upset now.waaaaaaaaahhhhhhh... coz the budak melayu(malay students) in cedar went jalan raya(erm...raya walk?)yesterday.i didnt get to go!!!!!!! but i oso went jalan raya.with my family.from 10 in the morning till 5.den at 5 i went to ATTEND a wedding...please arh..not MY wedding!...and i stayed at the wedding till 11 at night. wow.so long...oh.you see my title for this entry? yup.i went in the mrt yesterday.then this guy walked in and sat down.then at of nowhere, he yawned bigbig.like lion.i'm serious and he made this loud yawning sound.but that wasn't all.he can still go and say 'AIYAH!'. very loud!until the people in the same cairrage were staring at him.except me.coz i was too busy snickering at the people's reactions.hhahhahhahahahaha...

okay.erm.this is the part where i start on a random topic.

i don't hate her.but now i know. she has kept it for long.far away.from me.
yup.so sorry if any of my past entries has made some of you think that i am emo.hey.get straight.i.am.not.i just felt that i could vent my frustrations on my blog.but of course i read the whole entry a second time to ensure that nothing will go wrong later on.

this is what we call life,
where people come and go and pretend that they just don't know
when thay really just don't care.
and this is what love really is,
when you laugh and you smile
and you give and not take,
but to shout and to scream
and give up and just break
in the end..in the end.

oh the joys in life

2007-10-15T13:54:00.000+08:00

i feel so happy.since it started to come to realise to me that hari raya was coming,i scraped the vision of my marks into the bin in my brain.and now, i am optimistic.hahaha. hari raya rocks! i mean, come on, what else can you want? you get food,teh chance to visit your cousins and other relatives which i am very sure u don't even remember how they look like, money, food and ...well...more food.haha.but you just enjoy.yup.you only start worrying like a week after that.mainly cause you gained back all the weight you lost when you were fasting...plus a few more extra kgs...ehem...back to my point...yes! dapat duit raya!....now got extra cash in my wallet.happeyyyyy...

the bathroom
the trusty place to hide.
behind the door
you unveil your fears
but you let go
because you know-
the roaring fears,
the muffled tears
the clawing pain;
will not be heard.

what's with the coldness?

2007-10-08T08:38:00.001+08:00

i forgot to mention this.i can sometimes really hate her. like really detest her. did you know? i asked her to help me with my notes. help me to memorise.and what does she say? erm..i am a bit busy.can do on your one,right? aiyah.just go to your room and memorise lah.i tried to be understanding. maybe she is too taxed by work.and needed the television to help her relax. i was about to got to my room when my brother stepped out.and he said,mummy,can help me memorise my notes?my exam is next week..she said.memorise? can.come. then she turned the television off. ohh.so nice of her.to HELP. she helped when his exam is next week. she didn't help when my exam was teh next day...
i couldnt do anything. i locked myself in my room.

a broken wing.
couldnt fly.
useless sympathy.
what did you do.
threw me in the dustbin.

my hair is still black! OMIGOSH!

2007-10-08T08:27:00.000+08:00

yeeeessssss. exams are over! and yes, i am so surprised that my hair is STILL black. i tot that after all that exam stress, it would turn white.but still i am thankful.well...until wednesday that is.coz on thursday,i dont think i will be that thankful.haixxxx...aniwaes,i cut my hair!haha. yup.lazy me. i cut coz i lazy to tie.haiyoh.so typical of me.hari raya is on saturday.$$$....that is the only other day when my brothers act like loansharks.ya.they collect money from relatives.they actually expect money from me to.but i am not married.so chocs will do.i shall refrain myself from finishing the chocs myself before giving them. only one week of fasting more.wowwww...fast huh? is it just me or did someone send me to the future while i was dead asleep?hhahhahha..

shoes- changed,
clothes-washed,
hands-cleaned,
smile-put on,
what's left?
oh yes.
the tears to wipe.

i try to trust this quiz result..

2007-09-28T20:54:00.000+08:00

You Are the Ace of Diamonds

You are a lucky person, and you always seem to find yourself surrounds by pretty, shiny things.
You have a knack for success and money - though your skills can't really be learned or taught.

You shine in a room, and you a have a truly sparkling personality.
A true extrovert, you always are able to share a witty joke or the latest scandalous gossip.

While you do have an eye for bling, you are also quite generous.
A lot of wealth and luck comes your way. And you're not afraid to pass it on.

A gamble you should take: Sports betting

Your friends would describe you as: Captivating

Your enemies would describe you as: Greedy

If you lived in Vegas, you would be: A trophy wife or husband

What Playing Card Are You?

you are the only music in me

2007-09-25T11:05:00.000+08:00

yes.a for music.k.can start worrying for my malay again.but the three of us screwed up.glad that it wasn't that noticeable.lallalalallala.i got a new bear.so sweet. it is now officially my lucky charm!!!!! and no, i am not bringing it to sleep. well....maybe..hahaha. yes.someone told me that this blog skin is so emo. is it? well.i didn't have that in mind....awwww i love watching chinese shows at nite...

it's living in all of us
and it's brought us here because...
you are the music in me....

two more years and you'll be done with school..

2007-09-23T12:15:00.000+08:00

plain white tees...what kind of a name is that?! i searched through my closet and i couldnt find a single white t-shirt...i found a lot of black ones though...hahaha.new band. plain black tees.still got a lot of homework....and i cant find my drawing book. and and i have to buy more printer ink. and i love my blog skin.okkaaaaaaayyyyyy..dat wasn't supposed to be there.so random.haha.nevermind.hasia,you say you want to send my poem to competition.so...where's my prize?????

i like you just the way you are..
but can you handle me the way i'm are?

english.done.

2007-09-21T16:18:00.000+08:00

it is friday!!!!!! and i have finished my english paper.yes! finally over.good.coz now, i can start worrying for my malay paper.and once that is over,i can start worrying for my history paper.man...i am so going to have sooo many white hairs once the exams are over. and once i get the papers back,all my hair will drop off because i will be too shocked at my results and then i will be a depressed and bald girl.yes.life is great,ya?wdh.so not lah...i think my computer got problem...coz whatever i typr out only comes out on the screen after like five seconds.wow.so slowwww.slower than me.hahahaha...yup.it is time to take a bat from the cedar pe department room and then bring home and then use it to smash this lousy computer and its cpu into like a million pieces.oh.but not the printer.i love my printer.coz it is always so fast.gosh.i seem to have a lot of time to spare.coz i keep on typing about crap.forget it.i might as well change my skin.so that natasha is happier...

new beginnings,but the same ole ending...

2007-09-20T10:33:00.000+08:00

it's true.wether you believe it or not,it's true.we all come from different backgrounds but we end the same.haha.pardon me.just slash off that crap ok?i feel so sick.runny nose.wad the hell....too cold lah.and hopefully tomorrow it doesn't go dripdripdrip.why?coz it will be plain gross..2moro is engllish.haisssss.....letter writing.why do we have to do letter writing anyway?it goes to show that our education government refuses to acknowledge that the country is more advanced.so poor thing lah them.coz it is higher chances that they are just blur or too busy until they become blur. ...

way back into love....

2007-09-17T10:30:00.000+08:00

goshhhhhhhhhhh...have to do research on way back into love.musictest...i hope ms chye is so not serious on recording the whole 2p performance...my hair is like flying everywhere.yes.literally everywhere.and thanks natasha for the reminder on the hair...natasha is telling me now that her junior always asks her on crushes.hmm.so...mature.well.get on with it.nothing wrong about that i guess.oh.unless the guy is totally disgusting.haha.and now,natasha is pissed.and laughing.what?!back to what i was saying.sori.natasha is not pissed.but still laughing..lame...my mum said that everyone had a right guy.whatever that meant.what about gays and lesbians.maybe more to lesbians...gays.erm..have their guys already.but for the gals.keep in mind that guys are slow.cant blame them,rite????eh.this is not targeted at anybody ah...please dun get the wrong idea...ahemahem.

our secret is still under wraps.i want to break free...

because the remedy is not the medicine

2007-09-15T15:57:00.000+08:00

yesyes.sorry.this blog like stone for toooo long.k.update.wat ah?oh ya. i went for the situational test for the potential pupil leaders and i can only say that it totally freaked me out.there were five stations.one abt writing a proposal for naional day celebrations, an aunt agony station,a cheering station,a how-well-do-you-handle-a-situation station,a talking station.ya.sori horh.descriptions of the stations are not quite the correct..haha>>>

aniwaes,all i have to sae is that prefects and psls and act sooo well.so convincing that it is scary.ya.literally scary..

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh...fasting month starting already!only a few days have passed and i have already come up with a list on whose house we are going to first on hari raya and another list on what i will be eating when we are at each of the houses(i called some of them and they already predicted before i could ask,that i wanted to know what they will be cooking for hari raya...talking a weird...).and a last list with my calculations on approximately how much hari raya money i will collect this year..yes.this is the only time of the year in which i LOVE maths.hahahahaha...

i love this song!the remedaaaaaaaaaaayyy..i memorised!!!!!!!!hahahaha

and behind closed eyes,i cannot make them go away
coz you were born on the fourth of july
freedom ring
now something on the surface it stings,
i say something on the surface,well it kinda makes me nervous
who said that you deserve this
and what kind of god would serve this
we wil cure this dirty old disease.
coz if you gots the poison,i gots the remedy
it is a dangerous liaison
i say the comedy,is that its serious
which is a strange enough new play on words
i say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
the rest of the nights with the light on
so shine the light onall of your friends.
well it all amounts to nothing in the end
i won't worry my life away
ohohohnooooooooooooo
iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
i won't worry my life away.
ohohnooooooooooo
in cross-fire kind of a reality show
uncovering the ways to plant the next big attack
well they were counting down the ways to stab the brother in the be right back
after this,the unavoidable kiss.where the minty fresh death breath is sure to
outlast this catastrophe
dance with me
coz if you gots the poison,
i have the remedy...

me.me.hungry.hungry.

2007-09-03T07:25:00.000+08:00

hahahahahahahahahahahaha.yes.i am hungry.coz i am fasting.wdh.it is still in the morning.k.never mind.i shall continue playing computer.hahaha.future psl?maybe.fine.i wish.but must probably not.i think.coz i very blur.one second and i already forget my prefect's name.hmmm.i think it is estee.or is it setee?i dun know!!!!!!!and what class is she in?i oso dun know!!!!argh!!white hair!!!!!why issit there?! well....I OSO DUN KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!what the? i am losing my mind in the morning.thats it! i am going back to bed.goodnite.wait...no.good morning.erm.haiya!bye!

i am high...

2007-08-31T18:05:00.000+08:00

hey.long time no type.haha.now is the beginning of september holidays.sounds good?well,let me rephrase it for you.now is the beginning of non-stop studying for end-of-the-year exams coz if you dont, you will be so screwed coz you will fail all your papers and then be really sad with your results and then you will start suffering from depression then you start thinking about suicide..ok.ok.i am going overboard.pardon my um...devilish side.hahahahahahahahaha.k.muz control laughter.sorry.i came back from 50 laps @ cedar so high....coz me.and natasha ate a lot of sweet stuff.hahahaha.gosh.sugar does have an effect with me.aniwaes,me and nat ran 1 round.hmm...still,we ran,rite?and we sell lots of desserts!oh ya!i just remembered that mr sng owed us 50 cents and we owe him a packet of jelly.aiyah.dun care him lah!wdh.stupid ant.move of my screen.now!not tomorrow!thank-you.sorry.interrupted.where was i?nvm.oh.triple F.we so rocked.but you know,parents can eat so fast.our school must be so far that they were so hungry after the long journey to get to our school.hahahahahahaha.k.stop it!!!!!!!! sori...hehe...oh.where was i?oh ya.today was early teachers day.i gave flowers to my coach...and he cried!haha! must be so touched or maybe it is juz coz it has been a long time ever since he got flowers from anybody considering that guys feel weird giving flowers to guys.yes D,that includes you!oh.dont ask who d is.k?wow.long post haha.hahaha.hahahahahahahahahaha.heehee>>>signing off,wise,blind man.but more to the wise side,remember that!

i am still bored.hurrah.

2007-08-20T19:34:00.000+08:00

i am so proud of 2p!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yayay.but i am so nervous too.gosh.this is all mr sng's fault.why our class?what?he saw a lot of potential actors in our class.oh.sorry.actresses.forgot.still... you cant expect me to act as a guy at the snap of your fingers.fine.i can.gosh.i so dont have a point.forget it.but why do i have to put powder in my hair to look old.but i like acting blind.love the walking stick and sunglasses.but a gay hat.so wrong. performance is next wednesday,people! oh.and so is our class "party"...in other words,our triple F.wow.i am supposed to be a blind man and a chef in the same day.some give me a trophy or a medal...please...oh ya.noticed my post title? you know what it means? well, last time whenever i am bored,i will go disturb my bro.yup.fun.man,i am such a sadist.nvm...but the sad thing is that i dun have an elder bro but only three younger ones.so .ya.not fun.coz,they will simply stare at you and continue watching spongebob squarepants. watever.now my neighbour is super sweet.and allows me to disturb him.see? sweet.but since he is this nice shows that he has a problem.so i leave him out.so i disturb my "friends".muahahahahaha....

yup.went to a friend's house and found them.4 to be exact.and you know what?! all of them know each other.heh heh.if you are one of them, just take it to heart that you are helping me to de-stress.my case is serious.like, 'i-can-go-bonkers-anytime' serious.but hey.i am a NICE person.so dun worry...

i am a pig.oink.but a purple pig.not pink.

2007-08-19T17:28:00.000+08:00

i feel so stuffed.yay.literature gathering went great yesterdae.our class so rock.ya.we played but at least most of us turned up! hasia was so touched. haha.wateva. then we went to eat kfc.chicken!see? stuffed.part one.only.coz i ate taquito and oarnge concentrated syrup drink.and todae we went to meet up for history powerpoint.and i drank yakult,water and ate pizza and two apple pies.yes.TWO!hey.it was my first time trying the stuffed bites fondue pizza combo thing.wats the verdict?i only got one thing to sae.CHEESE ROCKS!i dont care.i am so going to order one of those pizzas again.forget about.i will stae a purple pig...

in my pillow

2007-08-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

tell you one thing.the cedar one portal sucks.i feel so depressed after i see my results.sad.sad.sad.but being sad takes to much energy.so...i will be happy.happy.happy.happy.damn.i wanna sleep.but the aircon is not strong enough.i have this habit where i will only go in my room to sleep if it is cool enough.even with fan, i will still wait till god-knows-when after the room is cooled.but since i am happy,i shall watch crunchyroll first till...well...till i fall asleep in front of my computer screen and one of those passer-by ants kindly wake me up by walking on my arm and stupidly waiting for me to kill it.other words, small-scale suicide.oh.i forgot my manners.thanks,ant...and sorry.

now and again

2007-08-16T10:36:00.000+08:00

hmmm.dual universe.went on a sculpture walk along the singapore river.was pretty intimidated by a bird.coz i tought that i would explode if i touched it.looks like a balloon.i want that balloon.newton.is he great? special?no.i don't think so.dali. salvador dali.how about him?is he great? no. just a bit on the weird side.then who is great? friends.yup.great people.yes. all of us live with people who bring meaning to life and existence.wow.deep.really deep.kinda emo.sorry....

will you seize the day..

2007-08-07T17:55:00.000+08:00

yoyoyoyippieyo?
hahahahahahaha.sori.high.yay.tomorrow is almost the nation's birthday.can you people imagine.a dot which is 41 years and 355 days old.ancient.gosh.i sound and feel so patriotic.but i can only wear my red and white clothes tomorrow for a short while then have to change into performance costume.i hope you love my skin.even if you don't, at least acknowledge my 3 hour effort.my ears almost tore off from hearing my mother's lectures on how high the electric bill will be this month.i am so going to check the mailbox everydae so that i can snatch the bill letter thingy before my mom sees it or else, goodbye world.kidding.my mom is so not the violent type.

just something for you to think...
a friend of mine just asked me how i feel with changes.you know,CHANGES.like how our life and friends changes every year.i told my friend that i am fine with changes as it is a part and parcel of life.my friend stared at me.then she spoke.are this what you truely think of changes?and i bluntly answered yes.then she asked me again,i am very sure that everytime a change happens to you,what you really want is for things never to change,rite?i thought for a while.then realised.how did she know?!
last time,a girl really hated her friend.coz she was always smarter,prettier,sweeter,nicer.ya.youget the idea.this girl held a grudge against her because of her overwhlming popularity.the girl wished that the other girl could just disappear.6 years down the road,the popular girl died.the other girl cried.though her past wish came true,she wasn't happy nor contented.why?coz she didn't hate that girl.she just wanted to be like her.

dun ask me who they are.lets just say that it's not me.but from another mouth.

ha! in your face to the people who invented blogger!

2007-08-04T14:00:00.000+08:00

i feel good.why? coz i finally got a hang of the blogger.after how long? haix.god knows when.i feel so proud off myself.for once.aniwaes,you see these test things for blogs in my older posts?like the what does your birthday mean and what other crap? ya.if you want to see what the results are, you have to highlight it coz the words are in black and well, so is my skin.logic.aniwaes,my life update.well choir is going to be in the ndp performance.and i think yesterday's choir practice was most probably the liveliest practice i ever had in cedar.coz we were laughing.yes.actually laughing.in a good way.coz we are laughing WITH miss chye.which is totally different in the context of mr lam.coz we are not laughing with him.but AT him.see? biggo difference.oh.and i have and been thinking about something for the whole day.natsha asked me once,how many people can make you embarrassed?.and i said two.i wonder if there are people who knoe who these two people are?and most importantly, i wonder if the two people are aware that they are the people who can make me feel embarrassed?

i feel like a dog just pissed on me

2007-08-02T10:25:00.001+08:00

this is soooo unlike me.but just bear with it,ok? people have to think if what they say will really hurt some people or at least the person you are talking to currently.and you also have to think if teh person is really fine with whatever you sae...on the outside.coz she may be dying or is already dead on the inside.trust me.i am an expert in this.have experienced it before and are experienced enough to differenciate.some people are just putting on a mask.why?two reasons.one,they think about how people around them will feel if they found out that you are depressed.two,they are plain bitches.so.we are living in a masquerade?do we know who we are talking to?or do we?

i am baaaaaaaaackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

2007-07-19T20:26:00.000+08:00

so sori.i know i did it again.haha.oops i did it again...god.lame song.last time i type was last month.coz of my darned and probably cursed computer.but i shall blog.why?????i coz i am sooooooo on cloud 9,10,11,12,13 and beyond.but i cant tell you why.dun ask ppl!btu only three ppl know the reason.and one of them is ellyn.ellyn.shaddup.i know what you are thinking.if you dont know what i am talking about,ellyn, thats GOOD...hahaha.tomorrowgot to wear ethnic costume.and the chances of miss poon ever wearing one is like...hmmm..0.000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000001%?dont count on it.i feel so droopy.coz the whole day i have been running around,practising my lit lines,learning how to act like a blind man...and...imagining unimaginable teachers in ethnic costumes.so not photogenic...oh yes...anyone with songs from the high school musical in their handphone? i repeat. HANDPHONE.pls bluetooth to me.pls.pls.do a kind deed.pls...

2007-06-30T15:09:00.000+08:00

Your Gemstone is Orange Saphire

Courageous, optimistic, and successful.
Your confidence helps you handle the ups and downs of life

What Gemstone Are You?

2007-06-30T15:06:00.000+08:00

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are aloof, mysterious, and distant.
People feel like they really don't know the true you...
Yet they're still drawn to you, almost by magnetic force.

Underneath it all, you don't even really feel like you know yourself.
It's easier to put on a front than really think about your life's purpose.
You tend to seem pretentious, but it's just a mechanism you use to push people away.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

2007-06-30T15:03:00.000+08:00

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Marquise Diamond!

Like most Marquise diamond wearers, you are sexy and impulsive.
You're also good at getting what you want in life, no matter what it is.
You tend to be successful at love, your career, and anything else you desire.
Think Victoria Beckham and Catherine Zeta Jones: proud wearers of this ring!

What's Your Dream Engagement Ring?

wow. i actually cared to try...

2007-06-30T14:58:00.000+08:00

You Are A Blue Girl

Relationships and feelings are the most important things to you.
You are empathetic and accepting - and good at avoiding conflict.
If someone close to you is in pain, it makes you hurt as well.
You try to heal the ones you love with your kind and open heart.

What Color Girl Are You?

2007-06-25T10:32:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: April 1

You don't just believe in love at first site - you've experienced it.
You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter!
You are very prone to love - hate relationships.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4

You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

2007-06-25T10:30:00.000+08:00

You Are 82% Creative

You are an incredibly creative person. For you, there are no bounds or limits to your creativity.
Your next creation could be something very great... Or at least very cool!

How Creative Are You?

2007-06-25T10:29:00.000+08:00

You are White Chocolate

You are White ChocolateYou are sweet, caring, and truly very innocent.Whether your naive ways are a bit of act or not, people like to take care of you.You are a quiet flirt, and your power is often underestimated!

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofchocolateareyouquiz/">What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

20% talent, 80% heart..remember this, people...

2007-06-19T13:20:00.000+08:00

wow...i am like sooo zoinked. is that even a word. dunno.can't seem to find it in the dictionary, but mine is pretty outdated.aniwaes, i just read eunice blog and i have to congratulate her.wow. she made it to the second round of nj. she is soooooo pro. i wouldn't dare to even try. do you see the title of this post. it is exactly what my father said. and by coincidence, that is what the boxing coach said to corbin bleu in 'jump in'. wow. must have longlonglong-lost twins lah they.haha.aniwaes, i went to a karaoke competition.father-daughter one.i know. i know. even i am shoked wif myself for even joining it. but i was sooooo nervous. that i dropped the mic before my turn.fine, our turn. then this bald-headed guy scold me.watever... so pissed off with that unknown guy.then my dad saw me.so nervous-ish.and he said that i dun have to worry.and i actually felt better.maybe coz my dad actually cared and knew.or maybe it was becoz my dad took some time out to enter a contest coz hey, my dad is always overseas.so ya. we got second.not first.but still actually got a trophy.hahahahaha.woooooooooooooooooooow..............

swimming with my fish........................game.

2007-06-07T12:35:00.000+08:00

second week of holiday is almost over.NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dont go.wait for me.dont fly past..... haha. i finished my homework.yes!finally! and hasia, if u are reading, wen are you going to return my thumbdrive? coz i need to save my geog in it. and please tell me you didnt lose it.....PLS! haha....haha...aniwaes, while ellyn is being hooked up with audition, i am addicted to a fish game. you have to make the fish grow and and have little baby fishiys and sell them off. but they die so quickly.FISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sori. i have sooooooooo gone psycho....hahahahhaaha......

talktalktalktalktalktalk....

2007-06-05T18:02:00.000+08:00

i love dumb convos.here is one.it started from an ipw convo.believe it?

me; do on thurs

ellyn; u better

me; i know

ellyn; or i'll spray you with paint.

me; no diff

ellyn; and you'll be spotty godzilla

me; same color as my skin

ellyn; HAHA

ellyn; chao ta colour

ellyn; FRIED FISH

ellyn; HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

me; but is i spray on u den can see HUGE contrast

me; i love fish and chips

ellyn; HAHAcannibal

me; i love me

ellyn; no u eat u

ellyn; u CANNIBAL KING WITH A FAT NOSE RING!

me; no.queen.

ellyn; that FELL IN LOVE WITH A HULA DAME

ellyn; OMG

ellyn; YOUR LESBO

me; oi!

ellyn; HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

me; raw fish!

me; with flies!

ellyn; at least im alive

me; and fleas

ellyn;...

me; no

ellyn; fish dont have fleas

me; not alive

ellyn; \fleas cant swim

me; the pasar one

ellyn; better than burnt to crisp

me; not burnt

me; just fried

ellyn; at least im not disfigured

me: and loved by people

ellyn; nah

me; yumyumfish

ellyn; but EVERYONE loves me

ellyn; cos im FRESH

me; and pinkish

ellyn; haha sounds wrong

me; with blood

ellyn; nah

me; and inards

ellyn; not yet

ellyn; DUH

ellyn; them u no intestine huh?

me; im just flesh

ellyn; no

ellyn; skin

ellyn; burnt skin

me; ...

ellyn; that sticks to the frying pan

me; i love this conversion.

ellyn; marinated in soap to remove the skin

ellyn; me too

ellyn; sooooo scientific

ellyn; then your innards get thrown into the sewers

ellyn; cannot reincarnate

ellyn; HAHAHAHA

i know...i.am back.

2007-05-28T09:43:00.000+08:00

hi.i have one whole hour before i meet up with ellyn.i am going to be late.well...maybe not.coz then, she will kill me.i went to ole tampines yesterday.and it was freakin hot.but t was fun.i went to the games stalls.but i didnt win anything.oh. except the darts game.you had to shoot three bullseyes in a row in order to get a prize.and you have to be ten whole steps away from the dart board.but it was easy. coz my dad taught all the tricks in darts when i was four.i guess the guy at the counter have not had a winner the whole day.coz he gave me an extra prize for nothing.nice of him.and shit.i just remembered that i didnt bring home my choir songs.and we are supposed to memorise the german words.damn.and my lcd tv broke down.while i was watching a playback of wu zun in hanakimi.darn! but i understand why my tv broke down. wu zun was probably too hot for it to handle.haha! but now i have to use my old old tv.actually,its not a tv.it was a rundown computer turned into a tv.coz i put a device thingy inside it.wow...a moment of geniusness.....finally.

i feel emo...but will never show it....promise.

2007-05-22T17:38:00.000+08:00

so so sori dat i have not updated for like sooooooooooooooo bloooooooooooooody long.ya.rite now i feel depressed.but obviously, nobody knows.and dats good.keep it dat way. coz i dun rili express my feelings..except for happy and cheerful.yup. even my family does not know how i feel. rite now...i feel like shit.yes. dat bad.i lost my ezlink card.and my mum is like damn pissed off.i realized it this morning.and was frantically searching for it.den...my mum woke up.i did not dare to say to her wat was wrong.but my maid did.my mum started nagging non-stop.and that was the last straw.i could not keep it in anymore.i. yelled.at the freakin top of my voice. ..........at.my.mum.i guess her top blew off too.coz she just gave me dis hurtful comment.by dat time, i was gonna cry alredi.so i slipped on my shoes, grabbed my bag and went out of the house to skool.coz...i didnt want to see her face...and eunice was going to pick me up soon.i cried all the way to the bus stop.but, wiped my face before anyone at the bus stop could see me.not long after, eunice came.i tried to act normal.i tried my very best...all the way till school ended.but i cant get anything into my head.and yes.i still have not talked to my mum.during skool, i was thinking about it.some people made me feel better.but some made me feel worse.but i cant blame them.nobody knew.

oh.yes. haiku.
my roses have died.
i have been waiting for you,
for too long.goodbye...

sat.sat.saturday!

2007-05-12T09:51:00.000+08:00

fine! i will update now.yesterday was like super cool and yet super shit.history was like damn fun. hasia can like soooo run an election in future coz she will surely win.and ellyn...gosh..she can spit fire.no offence, ellyn...but u sure can rebart.then we had pe.boooooohooooo.....i feel tired and disappointed and tired.my sit ups was like soooo disgusting.i cant face myself anymore.i am sooo weak. then ellyn was soo upset over her inclined pull-ups.i told her to retry.coz i know she can do it.so i stayed back for a while to encourage her. then we went omni theatre!!!!!!!! and we get to lie down the whole time coz the screen was a t the ceiling.cool! but the starting part was really scary coz there were dinosaurs and when they were moving it seemed like it was going to step onto us.i screamed.yes...i am guilty of it.but half way...i dunno why but i suddenly fell asleep.the show was soooo not boring but i was really worn out and fell asleep.and when i woke up...my popcorn was gone!!!!!!!!sad!!!!!!!!!!!!i think i ate it while sleeping.i am soooooo sorrryyyy.i was supposed to share it with hasia...but it was ...........ermm.......gone?...but the show was a bit...ehem ehem.coz can see the babys thing.u know wat i mean.but we have to be mature and understand this things,rite?

i feel lazy and hardworking at the same time?

2007-05-02T19:32:00.000+08:00

hiya! ya. nowadays i feel bleddy lazy to type.but i haf to update. but nowadays, everyone seems to be soooooooooo busy. i am very sure no one ever visits my blog now...rite? aniwaes.i feel ......powerful.not in a bad way...like the 'i am soooo powerful and i want to take over the whole world coz i am mojojojo...' type. just that i feel that now i have something more important to live for. one or two weeks ago, joey told me that her uncle passed away due to a heart attack. and it was written in his will that she is to be given 10000 or 100000 dollars.i can't remember which one...but please lah...both is still a lot of money.....well......my grandfather under my father's side passed away last year.yes.i miss him a lot. aniwaes, today, this lawyer came to sought out the will. ya. he talk a bloody damn lot.talkative fellow....all i could understand is that 1.5 million dollars are to separated equally amongst my father and his 4 other siblings....and that my grandfather has put a house under my name..A HOUSE!! in johor bahru..and not just any house! IT IS A PRIVATE APARTMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have a house! wow! tanks grandpa.i will be sure to pray for you every day, afternoon,evening and night...but they said that i could only start living in it at the age of 20. haha.still young enough.

aniwaes, just in case you are interested,here are a few details of the house:

it is a private apartment
it is double storeyed
it actually has a porch...gosh! i did not know they have this type of houses in johor bahru......

my socks are wet.

2007-04-27T19:31:00.000+08:00

i have not posted anything for so loooooooonnnnnnnng...........haha. and today, it rained like it was the last day on earth. and i can still eat french fries.heehee.funny...me and ellyn had to go to the tampines regional library to ask the staff there a few questions. it was like really pouring at aljunied there. then it was drizzling in tampines. and then....it started pouring again. you how our skin wrinkles when you put in something wet for too long? ya. when i got home, i took off my shoes and socks and i saw how wrinkled my toes were. and they were white! really correction tape white! i guess it absorbed to much water..and i am really scared of lightning. and i had to wait for like a whole forty-five minutes before my bus came. and i had to stand as the seat at the bus stop was wet. and there were like lightning. i kept on cowering. damn scary! i guess my cowering was too obvious for me to keep it to a low profile...coz this boy was like asking me if i was ok...OMG!!!!!!!! so paiseh! so malu!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i think my flat is like so lightning prone.coz it keeps on getting blackouts.haiz.....time to stock up on the candles...

someone help me be not freaked out...please...

2007-04-23T20:05:00.000+08:00

today is like the last choir practice before the syf. JUST before the syf. pressure..pressure...wadevas.but it was a good practice.we were in pitch.then when we walked home,well...actually, to the bus-stop, something freaky happened to me. i will tell. me, eunice and jean were walking home. then they decided to whisper sumtin secret.so...i decided not to be a busybody and kept walking ahead of them. then i crossed the road and saw the bus 100 and 135.so i rushed. but then, i decided to wait for eunice and jean. i was so tired.so i sat down. then, i saw him. k.not really.coz i can't be bothered.haha.this malay guy walked towards me and asked me where aljunied crescent was. wait.pause first. is there such a place called aljunied crescent?i won't give a damn.i am sooooo not good with places in singapore.watevs...oh.back to story.since i had no idea wad-so-ever,i told him to ask someone who actually stayed in aljunied. then, he said ok. i minded my business and he started asking me where i stayed. i ignored him.then he asked my name. i was starting to get pissed off with him. and said, '' why would you care?'' and he smiled like so big-big.freako, i thought.then he asked me if i was still schooling.that was when i started to freak out.and then he told me that he was in sec 4...like i needed to know that.and his face was like bloody close to mine. but luckily jean and eunice came in time.if not i would have whacked his face with the court shoes in my bag.wow.that guy was soooooo despo. come on ,dude.at least choose a better girl. hais...a guy with bad choice.sicko. pervert.

jiayouz for syf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

run run run!

2007-04-20T20:39:00.000+08:00

woah.adeline runs super fast...and so does mr sng.i shall not doubt him anymore.i thought he can't run...oops...under-estimated him. this year sports day is like sooooo fun.i don't want to change houses next year...boohoo...it was sooo fun larh.cream like hell.k.not rili.i remembered to conserve my voice.hee hee.oh and people! try my mood ring thing.i found it on a site and decided to give it a try.tanks!!!!!!!

I AM WOMAN.HEAR ME ROAR.BUT I AM IN CHOIR.SO HEAR ME SING....COZ ROARING HURTS MY VOICE...

2007-04-18T10:11:00.000+08:00

oh.my.god!syf is next week!i am sooooo scared.scared not worried. coz like everybody's eyes will be set on you and they can see your every move on stage. *shivers* and you know what?i do want that gold.....with honours badly.it will be terrible if we didn't. it is not that silver is a bad thing or anything.but, everyone had high hopes and faith in us. we will be like letting them down.....so, choir must JIAYOYU! coz if we give up at the last minute, it will be as if we had just wasted all your time in choir all this while. believe me. syf will make you think differently. and after this competition, you will somehow be more mature. really! i have gone through it before. and somehow magically, on that very day when choir steps onto the syf stage, you will feel that we have bonded more than we thought. and when you sing, it just comes naturally to you. then, when you go backstage, you start t9 become nervous again. but deep down inside, you want to experience it again. it is just soo magical.........but sadly, my primary school choir still got silver.gosh! i can't wait for syf....

no haiku.still brain block.typed all this during reccess.i think i spelled that wrongly...haha.

ice- cream...for ice -cream

2007-04-17T21:11:00.000+08:00

my computer got special treatment today.we had this specialist guy come over to take look on why computer is damn slow.wel...actually, he is my mother's friend.very close friend.ya.they laughed like crazy.the horror.... me and jean went to white sands for free ice- cream.eunice was down with a sore throat thingy.poor thing.i can emphatise with her. and her father was picking her up.anywaes, there was this long snake in front of us. and we decided not to go near it.kidding. the 'long snake' i was referring to was the long bleddy line in front of the ben and jerry's ice- cream parlour. jean and i decided not to queue up. after quite a long time after that, we went home.and the queue was still as long.gossh! singaporeans are so despaerate for free ice- cream. but i had to admit.it was ben and jerry's. iwanted it too.but i could hold my hunger pangs.whatever...there is no choir tomorrow.well actually, there is an extra practice tomorrow.but i had already moved my dental appointment to wednesday since i had choir on thursday.too bad.
oh.and no haiku.brain block...arghh!

school is really putting me off..

2007-04-15T18:15:00.000+08:00

it's sunday!!!!!!.hmph! nothing great.it's just one day less to monday.i wnt to religious class today.it was really boring.you just repeat whatever the teacher says.same old thing.then, i got home.threw my stuff aside and...well...i can't remember wat i did..i switched the computer on.and it was fast...yeah rite.it took 2 whole hours to load my personal settings...and i fell asleep on the couch waiting for it. then...i did my dnt homework...and then like five bees came and bugged me..hahaha.get it?bugged me?fine.lame.i guess it got attracted to dnt.wad the hell. and my maid was like vacuuming the carpet.she told me to hold my papers.and she used the vacuum cleaner to suck in the bees.smart. wow.such a heroic attempt.round of applause people! but...i guess the bees a re not used to living in a vacuum cleaner's filter bag...coz...they all died.well...they should have known better than to enter my house.go on insects! risk it! enter my house and prepare for war..erm...between you ...and my maid...

my handphone,my keys,

there's something in my pocket.

a photo of you.

FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH!

2007-04-13T22:48:00.000+08:00

ouch.my heel is like flat.really flat as in prata flat.ow...anyways, today was the best friday the thirteenth. EVER! coz even though we still have a lot of homework...as usual...at least i finished most of them.ya.i know.i can't believe myself either...the teachers are pretty evil, you know? they like to see us suffer under the excruciating stress of their homeworks.maybe teachers never tasted kit-kat before.HEY TEACHERS!TAKE A KIT-KAT AND GIVE US A BREAK ,WILL YA? guess not.the chances of that happening is as slim as the chances of me remembering to eat my meals....you get my point.even if you don't,then...try harder.i went to meet up with my mum.went to eat and went shopping.we walked past this shop and their were like, a million gazillion rings.wow! heaven.rings are a die for.yes.i have a soft spot for rings. and...i bought this one with a bronze coloured pearl.my mother complain about me spending too much money.but then, i show her this ring and told her that it wouldlook great on her.she tried it on.and she liked it...and BOUGHT it.it cost thrice more than mine.hmpph! pot calling the kettle black.sheesh.

haikuhaikuhaikuhaikuhaikuhaikuhaikuhaikuhaikuhaikuhaikuhaikuhaikuhaiku

three bees were in class
''Mr Chai looked dead.'',it said.
go.i can't stand him.

hahahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahahhhahahahahahhahaha!

I should buy more memory pills..

2007-04-12T20:19:00.000+08:00

i am dying...i can't wait any longer.still got five whole days to ben and jerry free scoop day.yum.yum.so long!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!anyway, i really need to stock up my memory pills...either that or buy a new one...coz i think this one's not working.stupid pills. cheated my money.actually, i don't care.coz it's my mother's money.ha.in her face. her money just went down the drain.whoosh!haha...lame.
this week, i seem to do things last minute..wait...no...i ALWAYS do things last minute.i forgot.darn. goodness.i am a girl with a memory of a fish.why a fish? well, coz i went fishing in malaysia and we saw this fish swimming around our feet. then after five minutes,it was floating at the surface of the river. IT WAS DEAD.i guess it FORGOT to breathe...heaven or hell? i don't know and i don't wish to know.but luckily, our feet were no more in the water.YUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh...haiku...i am pretty brainless rite now.coz i just finished my dnt hmwrk...but i'll try my best...

dead fish in the water
heaven or hell, i wonder.
but i'd hate to know...

no sense....i wondr where the fish is right now...hmmm...

my crappy day................

2007-04-10T14:10:00.000+08:00

wad the shit. ben and jerry's free scoop day is NEXT tuesday...which is like a week away.great. just great.now,my shitty day.

i am tired.i am sick and tired. i am sick of me being sick and tired.i mean...i DO have my limits.and some people just cross the line. take me for granted. NO.please don't.it is my nature to always be nice to people. no matter how nasty i try to be...it still comes out.....nice.or is it that nobody ever sees my nastier side.no. i just don't show it in front of others.ya. i am super sick of people calling me stupid.it's fine to say it matbe, once....twice....as a light joke but too many times can hurt.i take what other people say to me very seriously and it will stay stuck in my head for a freaking long time.i am amazed with how much i can actually withstand.but what i am afraid is that one day which i can no longer hold it anymore. i fear to think of what will happen.really.but for now, i should continue just keeping it in the dark.under the surface.where nobody ever sees or hear of it.it hurts.i wanna cry.but i can't.i wanna die.but i won't.and no....i DON'T self- mutilate.hahahaha.....oh yaa...haiku of the day...

in the day i shine
in the night i fade away
my wish is to stay.

FREE SCOOP DAY TOMORROW!!!!!!!

2007-04-09T21:08:00.000+08:00

i am soooooooo upset.sosososososososo upset.my marks are suffering.really badly. so badly that i myself don't dare look at my marks. IT'S A DISGRACE!!!!!! *sob sob* but i guessed i should be used to it already.but this cannot continue. AZILAH!YOU MUST JIAYOU! :D this is one of my many many problems...other than my having a bit of a problem with my memory...i can't be sad for to long.weird...but true. if i experience a setback,the most i will do is to cry for five minutes and then get on wih my life. COME ON! I AM ALREADY SOO OLD.I CAN'T AFFORD TO WASTE ANY MORE TIME. well....to cover up my sadness experienced today, i decided to hand in my dnt folio on friday instead. i had wanted to do it today so that i can hand in tomorrow...but i decided to cut myself some slack. i shall continue to blog and play computer games ...or ...maybe not.tooooooo tired already.my eyes are starting to droop. cool! i can type with my eyes drooping...anyways...i decided that i am going to end all my post with a haiku. weird.ya i know. but mr sng and neopets gave me this idea.hey! don't get me wrong! i don't play neopets.my brothers do.i went to surf through the site and they had a 'haiku generator'...

Approves but shining
his neighborhood recommends
their monolith jumps.
...wad the hell does this mean...you figure it out.i typed this out half-consciously...

WHY MY HAIR IS SOOOOOO CURLY...

2007-04-08T18:19:00.000+08:00

eat too much maggi mee?
stress?
orang asli settlement
parents took the wrong baby at the hospital
my mum curled my hair with a SUPER hot curling iron when i was a baby?
twist my head too much when i sleep...
alien made it like that? (stupid alien...)
struck by lightning
electric shock...

soooooo many reasons but i don't know which is true.wad do you think?

secrecy

2007-04-08T15:45:00.000+08:00

i honetly dont know why i am actually posting something on this freaking topic...but...wad hell.let's just say i am very observant.you may think that everyone around you is the same.but your guess is wrong.people are ALMOST the same.but they all share a difference.this difference is the secrets that they keep.they may be hiding something...or maybe they are not hiding anything.this itself is a secret- unknown to people.weird? profound?cannot understand? me too.i cannot understand any of this shit that i am typing at this very minute...but i did understand when i first thought of it..well... i guess i plain forgot.it is natural to forget things.rite?someone tell me that it is normal.please.but.in my case, it is not normal.somehow...???

2007-04-03T14:44:00.000+08:00

life is difficult.but u can take it in your stride.it will be tough...but as humans, we have to withstand this.sorry about all that crap. i have a headache.pain...gosh.one thing i learnt today...not from personal experience is, pls pls pls tink before you type.BEFORE.not after.show some respect..and bare with the pain.ok...this sooodoes not sound like me.freaky.people reading my blog.see? i do have a serious side.hmph.i cant cry for feelings in front of people.just cant do it.that's bad.it's good to let out your feelings...even so, think before you let it out.just to be on the safe side...

ooo yeah! it's APRIL FIRST!!!!!!

2007-04-01T20:47:00.000+08:00

hello people.god.i just had an eye-opener this school week.everione is just so nice.so nice dat it makes me feel guilty.i mean...wat if i didn't treat them as good as they treat me? i am like soooo bad.but people tink dat i am nice.really? no.i am not.it is just da they hav enot seen my rougher side.that's all...and nobody will..at least that is wad i hope.this birthday was super different.not like wat i had expected.wad i expected was for me to sleep, then wake up and watch tv.blow my cke.eat.and sleep.wat did i do actually? well... i want to my grandparents' house and ate...A LOT!!! there was laksa, chicken, ice kachang, ice cream,a traditional malay dish...ya.you name it.then i got a guitar.ooh! this was totally unexpected..serious! and...i learnt how to ride a bike...well almost.i fell.a freaking whole lot of times.but it as fun.and...i STILL dunno how to ride a bike.hmphh......on friday, jac and ellyn teamed up against me.i could see through them.but i played along.i guess i fooled them pretty well.i wonder if they know that i saw through them...but it was soooooo nice of them to play a prank on me and event a small present hunt..pretty interesting.that i sooooo them.G-R-E-A-T-B-U-D-D-I-E-S.:>

my LIFE...........

2007-03-28T10:06:00.000+08:00

that.is .my.cat...kitten...wateva.i know wat you are thinking.damn cute, right?i am telling you dat this guy is not a softie.it scratches like hell.but even if it scratcehs you, you can't do anything. why? coz he is too cute.see? deadly.
wad the hell.he like scratched me twice on the same hand.and it is not only A scratch.it is many scratches.he is freakin rough.i am his owner! and how does he treat me? like a scratch post.
but there was a cute incident.i pretended to cry and he go and use his head to push me a ball thingy...which i have no idea where he got it from....and i don't wish to know...to me. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUUUUUUUUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yup.dats his picture. tsk.act cute!

me and meself

2007-03-07T22:12:00.000+08:00

me and meself

2007-03-07T22:01:00.000+08:00

you have to see this.it is all the behind the scenes work for the hana kimi crew...all that hard work for an mv...

MY LIST OF CUTE GUYS...4 the time being...

2007-03-05T20:16:00.000+08:00

WU ZUN
ARRON YAN
JIRO WANG
LUO ZHI XIANG
KIM JEONG HOON
RENFRED
SENOIR NAN in hanakimi
RAIN
HUANG HONG SHE
5566
JAY CHOU
K ONE
TANK?
ENERGY
JJ LIN?
SHINHWA?

THINK DAT MY LIST IS NOT THAT GOOD?look at my maid's...

MEI TIAN?! from hana kimi..
NICHOLAS TSE..
F4...

BAD TASTE,RITE? come on...give my list some credit...

i can't believe i memorized all this..

2007-03-04T18:33:00.001+08:00

Zhuan Shu Tian Shi - TANK
Wo bu hui guai ni dui wo de wei zhuangTian shi zai ren jian shi gai cang hao chi bangRen men yu chun lu mang er ni xian xi shan liangZen neng rang ni wei le wo bei peng shangXiao xiao de shou zhang hou hou de wen nuanNi zong neng ping fu wo bu an de ye wanBu gan xiang de meng xiang tou guo ni de yan guangWo cai kan jian ta yuan lai zai qian fangMei you shei neng ba ni qiang li wo shen pangNi shi wo de zhuan shu tian shiWei wo neng du zhanMei you shei neng qu dai ni zai wo xin shangYong you yi ge zhuan shu tian shiWo na li hai xu yao bie de yuan wangXiao xiao de shou zhang da da de li liangWo yi ding ye kuai xiang ni yi yang fei xiangNi xiang qu de di fang jiu shi wo de fang xiangYou wo bao hu xiao rong jin guan can lanMei you shei neng ba ni qiang li wo shen pangNi shi wo de zhuan shu tian shiWei wo neng du zhanMei you shei neng qu dai ni zai wo xin shangYong you yi ge zhuan shu tian shiWo na li hai xu yao bie de yuan wangYao bu shi ni chu xian wo yi ding hai zai chen shuiJue wang de yi wei sheng ming zhi you hei yeMei you shei neng ba ni qiang li wo shen pangNi shi wo de zhuan shu tian shiWei wo neng du zhanMei you shei neng qu dai ni zai wo xin shangYong you yi ge zhuan shu tian shiWo na li hai xu yao bie de yuan wang

2007-03-04T09:28:00.000+08:00

Today, I really don’t know how to describe it... but for the time being, I will just say....unpredictable... it is 9.13 in the morning. And I feel bored... i am waiting for the minimart auntie to set up her store before I go and buy my weekly issue of 8 days. Man. All this waiting is give a shoulder ache but the auntie is not all to blame, it is most probably because of my last night’s sleeping posture too....and now, I feel so crappy... I mean...what is wrong with me?? I slept like at 1 a.m. and I woke up this early!!!!!! And the freakiest part is that I don’t feel deprived of sleep...at all! But, I do admit that I do feel crappy.....DAMN IT! It’s 9.22! The auntie and her shop should be ready by now... but on the other hand, I’ll be patient and wait a while longer...

one dae away from skool..not that i am excited about it...

2007-03-03T15:50:00.000+08:00

god.i was looking forward to the oac break for me...but the teachers had to give us homework.fine.i closed an eye. but today...i went to the cedar website and tried to do the work given. i really tried! honest! but it was too chim... i am telling you, the teachers can't bear to think of their students happily smiling, enjoying their break. NO! they had to spoil it for us...

i wanna die.i wanna be burnt in a fire.

see that fire at the top? ya.that's what i mean...but no.i am to young to be burnt in a fire.yup.too young (minus my eyebags, a few whites hairs, my alwaes tired soul...).young.

next on the pictures list...well...my picture list is..............drumrolls.......ARRON YAN!!!

if valencia is reading this, i found out that it's arron and not aaron...

to type b4 i go senile..

2007-03-02T23:12:00.000+08:00

GOD!!!!i forgot my username and password for the third time!i mean, how forgetful can i get? or... am i going senile? oh noooo! this is dangerous! iam too young to be senile!wait...i am sooo starting to sound like jiro in hana kimi....not like it's a bad thing...but stil....k.pictures,pictures. nextis....(drum rolls...)JIRO WANG!!!YAY!!!!!